Just a word of encouragement for others on this road...

Thanks. How are you coming along. Still seeing improvement? I wish this process was not so difficult for all of us. Keeping you in my prayers....

Had a whole 7 days of feeling normal and then all the symptoms came flooding back again. So frustrating. Just got to keep going. Best of luck

Was there a trigger? Sometimes something will trigger me for a day or two once I'm good and then back to stability...just a blip. Hope that's all you're going through right now.

No, unfortunately no pattern or trigger. I wish it was that easy to root cause. Just got to feel positive that i felt so good for a little while. Got 2 kids and a wife to support so giving up isnt an option 😉

keep on going. You will get there.

I understand the frustration. Hopefully the fact that you had so many good days in a row means you are on your way to full recovery soon and then you will be able to get on with your life.

Thank you. best of luck to you too

Had a family gathering round my sisters for Sunday Lunch and broke down in tears to my mum. luckily, my kids, nephews and nieces were out of the room. Felt ill all morning at work today, sweating, loose bowels, jittery and gave in to the temptation of Diazepam as opposed to going home early. So exhausting keeping a brave face and battling through the day at work. I know that i have to keep on going to work as at least work gives me a focus no matter how bad i'm feeling on the inside. I know Diazepam isn't the answer and have to use for emergencies but it feels like every day is an emergency now. Best wishes to all in their recovery.

I understand what you mean about work. I thought that when I was sick going back to work was going to be impossible. Instead it turned out to be helpful and made the days go by faster because I had something else to focus on. Don't get me wrong, during the worst of it I could not go to work because I could not even think, but as the meds started to take effect, work was helpful. Staying home all day with no structure or other things to focus on can be very detrimental and adds to the anxiety.

Don't beat yourself up about the Diazepam. You do whatever it takes to get through the day, there is no shame in it. I truly wish you the best in your recovery.

This last time I started with 25mg for two days, 50mg for 3 days, and then 75mg for 12 weeks, and 87.5mg for 11 days as of today. I titrated up so quickly because I knew that I responded to 75mg in the past and did not want to waste time trying to get better. I will say that it made it very hard in the beginning because I did not have anything to combat the start up effects. In fact, I took a month off from work because I could barely function. I have now been on them five separate times in five years, all because I did not learn my lesson the first four times. I agree, I think that it takes more time the more you're on them.

I will once I feel 100%. I don't necessarily want to jeopardize my stability with another dosage change, especially since I always get some type of affect from changes.

Exactly why I posted it. I noticed that once people feel better they go on to live their lives and leave everyone wondering what happened, did it work, did it not work? I too came here looking for reassurance even after going through this process multiple times. It does help, especially since when we are waiting for them to work, hope is all we have to hold on to. I noticed that you have been through the wringer a few times yourself. How are you doing now?

Oh yes I have! lol. Over 20+ years now. But it's probably my own fault I am one that should stay on the antidepressant for life. And although each time has been horrible, I kind of know what to expect now, and what is happening when I get there so that helps a little too.

I am doing okay right now, this past year I tried celexa and gave it 9 months to work but now that I've quit taking it for awhile I see that it really was not for me, it made me numb to emotions completely it caused DP DR pretty much every day so basically my mind was numbed from everything and it was horrible! But I suppose going through everything that I have in the past I've built up such a tolerance to anxiety, and being scared of these feelings it didnt terrify me like it would someone who's never had it. But it sure didn't feel good still.

I am now taking nothing I wanted to really let my mind clear of that celexa and stabilize first. I have my script for zoloft ready to go though I will go back on it, and I will stay on it this time.

Similar story here, but for only the last 5 years. I didn't seem to learn that I also have to stay on them for life and stopped four other times prior to this time. My issue is I also suffer from severe depression and actually put my life in jeopardy every time I stopped my meds. The suicidal ideation was horrendous and constant and, since I was trying to keep my loved ones in the loop and help them keep me safe, made for a very trying time for all of them too. I don't think I'll ever be doing that again. Hope all works out for you, too.

Axle, how are you feeling now buddy?

Sorry for the late reply, I've been really busy (catching up on all the things I didn't do while recovering). I've settled on a combination dose of Sertraline-75mg and Abilify-2mg. I'm now at the two month point after stabalizing and I feel really good. I consider myself very lucky that my medication still works for me, especially after quitting four other times. I won't make that mistake again. Hope you are doing better. Take care for now....

axle i am on 50mgs of sertraline on day 48 how long did it take for the anxiety to go away