Just about had enough!

Hi caroline, Bah humbug! I am not in a merry mood either...as far as I am concerned 2018 cannot be over fast enough! Still feel lousy, still not working...seriously...I would have to be delusional to be happy about that. Some would say we have our health! OK! if you call this healthy...ha! Anytime people see me I get the sympathetic head tilt and questions of how I am feeling...so glad it is just my hubbie and kids.

You are not alone on this...I suspect many of us will be faking it to make it!

Hi Caroline,

We aren't bug Christmas people as it is just my mom and I for the holidays, but I can sympathize with the panic. I have had a few episodes today. I am still feeling anxious now as about 30 minutes ago, I caught a bit of light in the eye. I tried blinking several times and could still "see" it. I immediately thought it might be a migraine aura started and went into full panic mode. It's a terrible feeling living in fear and being scared all day. It is exhausting. Just think, Christmas will be over in two short weeks.

Good God yes Caroline, I think we all feel that way even if you have the hormones of a 20 year old. Christmas is super stressful, but when you feel lousy but still have to shop, wrap, stuff, wrap, smile and make nice it's made even harder. I always think I can't get through it, or worry that I won't get it done but it always comes together regardless of how I'm feeling, and it will be the same for you. Think when you're menopausal you go into anxiety overdrive, when in reality you'll cope cos you always do! My plan is to get everything done by next week, and just spend the rest of the time drunk.... It seems to work 😃 I had a day like you today, throttled in the grip of the ghost of Christmas menopause, thought I'd faint, then crying, then shaky, then tired and somewhere in the middle I pickled onions so can't be much wrong with me! Try this year to see the faith in yourself that everyone else has, pickle some onions and if all else fails get drunk ♥ xx

Caroline you are not alone. Right now I'm on stress/depression/burnout leave. This year has been really bad for me with menopause. Usually I have enough good days where I can push through. I've been on leave since November 28. I'm scheduled to return to work January 2, 2019. Already know I don't want to return. I had already been thinking about leaving before I had a meltdown in my Supervisor's office. I see a therapist once a week. She said to use this time to heal and let it out. If that means crying all day, do it. If it means staying in bed all day do it. She said my body is going to do what it needs to heal. Woke up Tuesday with frozen shoulder. It's better now, but if you Google it, it says it last for years. I was scheduled for a massage and she must have worked that shoulder 30 minutes. Today it's a little sore but I can lift my shoulder over my head.

Caroline do you ever feel like you're slowly dying inside? I'm dealing with that now. I talk to God all day. He saw I was hanging by a thread and this time off is a HUGE blessing.

As far as Christmas, my sister is having brunch and she said we could even come in our jammies. That helps me. No all day thing and I don't have to dress up.