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Just when you think

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dondons
dondons

Had a bad day today, everyday is bad but past few days haven't been quite so bad as usual...now? Well now I realise not to think/hope/pray that it'll last because it just doesn't! At least not for me! And even if it did it's no life to live! Feel I can't win! Life is frigging tough! Used to think I was stuck in a rut...now I'm coming to realise that the "rut" is just my life!.....my life? If only that was all I had to worry about! I have 5 little lives that come before mine and feel like I'm ruining theirs...actually I know I am and I hate it!!! Nothing I want/need/try ever seems to help and without sounding even more ridiculous than I am....I feel like I'm cursed! Feel like anything I try/do just doesn't work or isn't enough

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    DawnDedee dondons

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    I can understand.  I am raising three little lives and I beat myself up inside.  I hope that I do not teach them how to live in a rut.  I have times when I envision myself having great energy and taking walks with them to show them a healthy balance in life.  But instead I stay inside with no energy.  My newest antidepressant is showing some promise.

    Keep on keeping on.  For me, as much as death seems like a viable option at times, I just do not know what is on the other side of it.  Is it really worth it?  Since those who have crossed that line cannot tell me any facts, I figure what I think up in my head about death bringing relief, must be a lie.

    Take care,

    Dawn, USA

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