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Days are passing like seconds i no longer feel happy i have forgotten how to live normal happy life i dont find my self motivated any more no matter how hard i try. i have enrolled in college in my dream education Software and Data Base development i all ways loved programming all ways dreamed of writing codes and now even i am learning and studying my dream getting closer to my dream but still i feel like its point less. i dont know why i feel this way i cry in nights trying to figure out why this is happening to me.
why dont i feel any thing i am so sick and tired of this.
i wear my smiling mask every day go to work and college pretend that nothing happened nothing inside me is killing me making me feel like i am not going to live the next second, my blood is rushing in my heart making it beat faster.
i run to washroom and try taking deep breaths. sad sad sad like its raining on my head 24/7. i sit down and put my head down and think am i the wrong guy who deserve to live.
i think and i think
Doctors keep giving medication.
slowly killing inside me making me worried cant find peace no matter how hard i try but hey the smiling mask is doing its job and no one around me knows what i am going through.
is there any one who feels the same way
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