Lonely and struggling

Debbie & teresa. Thank you so much for your kind wishes. teresa, I lost my mum with dementia 4yrs ago. We were very close & it was heartbreaking. i am the same when I go for walks. I will cross the road to avoid talking to friends even. I feel bad doing it.

Debbie. I am sorry you have not had closeness in your family life. When family based programs come on TV & people are crying with joy because a long lost brother or sister comes back into their lives, it leaves me totally cold. I never had that with my brother or sister. I am happy to PM, but I don't seem to be able to find the "send" icon. Technology & me, we just don't get on too well together!!

Lee. I can understand that. I wouldn't say it leaves me cold, though - more that it makes me jealous. It would be a nice feeling, to have a close family like that. I hope I will one day. I've never actually used the PM thing myself, except to reply to someone else - technology isn't a huge fan of me either!

Thank you for your kind comments,its nice to know I am not alone .I tend to stay at home and only go out if I must.My partner has just set up a new business which means I have to answer the phone to customers.I feel sick when the phone rings.

Debbie. I would be glad to feel jealousy over family matters. I just don,t.

terasa. I hate to feel like a recluse. I have 2 good friends living close, that keep in touch either by calling or by phone. I make all kinds of excuses not to go & visit them, or I will say to myself, "go visit Ged & Billy tom" Tomorrow comes & the excuses come out. Then "I'll go tomorrow" & so on & so on. During these times I hate answering the phone. My stomach turns cartwheels when it rings. It's horrible, I feel such a wuss. I think everything will be better tomorrow after a good nights sleep, but it very rarely is.

Hi Debbs. How are you feeling today? What are you studying? I think it's good to talk about our problems, heaven knows, sometimes I can't stop It's also good to just talk about things in general. Do you have any hobbies or interests? TV? movies? Likes, dislikes? reading? romance?? anything you like, except politics

Hi Deborah.

Just seen your post, sorry to hear you have been struggling recently. Depression brings loneliness because we isolate ourselves from others. I do the same thing, turn down invites from friends or put off meeting up with them, making all sorts of excuses and promising that I'll go see them another time, but when that other time comes I do the same thing all over again.

I have made a couple of good friends from this site though, and I only joined in January, we talk quite regularly now. Even if you find it difficult to spend time with others right now keep in contact with your friends, and keep talking to people, it will help your lonliness.

Take care

Hi Lee I've been doing okay today (and for a few days now, actually). How are you doing?

I'm studying English, so reading is like one of the main things for me, I love it. Right now it's Shakespeare for class, and American Psycho just for me. I like TV and movies as well, I'm watching a lot of stuff on Netflix since there's hardly ever anything actually on TV. I do some writing. Oh, and I'm working on directing a scene from Shakespeare (which is technically a class project, but I'm really enjoying it). And I do some volunteering, and occasionally manage to drag myself out to hang out with friends. That's pretty much it. What about you?

Hi Sunset17

I do my best to keep hanging out with people, even when it's hard - it's like one of the only things that can distract me from how I'm feeling. I used to be very independent and I could go ages on my own, but now I like to be talking to people as much as possible, it reassures me, stops me from spending too much time stuck in my head.

How have you been doing?

Hi Deborah, I have been doing fairly well thankyou, hope you are feeling better from when you made this post. That's great that you still get out and see your friends, I find I have to force myself, just struggling with the anxiety still. I just find that for now I feel happiest when I'm by myself, I guess it's when I feel I can have control of the situation.

I'm sorry to hear that, I've been lucky that my anxiety has been kept mostly under control. I hope you feel better, and keep in touch with your friends

Thanks, I feel like I'm doing ok, just needs a little more work to conquer the anxiety, I don't feel unhappy not seeing my friends as often, but I would like to be able to feel some enthusiasm to see them more.

Deborah, Hi It's Tony. I've changed my profile name because I thought having my full name on show was a bit silly as people I know could see what I was thinking.

I was supposed to have the interview today but it was cancelled last night. They are re evaluating the position and might make it part time instead. Oh well, win some lose some. If they do decide it will be full time then it is practically mine as the other person up for it dropped out.

Feeling positive today and hoping it stays for a while. You're sounding more positive now. How is the studying going?

Sunset17... You'll get there. I know it can be hard to have patience. I'm always here to talk if you need/want to.

Thanks Deborah, you too message me whenever you like.