Melbi how you doing?
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Morning Melbi
Just checking to see if you are ok & hopefully feeling a little better. Did you get any sleep last night? Thought of you as I too lay awake most of the night (work related stress!), forgot my meds this morning as well - daft bat that I am!!! Never mind will take them later.
Hi to PJ, Breezeman, Tiny Tears & all - hope you'r all having a good day so far........
Nicky Jane x
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Yes, thanks I am feeling a little better today, but very dubious of these feelings knowing they could go from 10 - 0 in seconds.
Went for a bath and ended up cleaning bathroom, came downstairs with some washing, washed the breakfast pots and swept kitchen floor, something my kids always seem to forget to do!
Just received a letter to say I have been put on the prioty waiting list for Cognitive Behaviour Therapy. Hasnt phased me in the least- in fact maybe my GP has seen how desperate I am after all.
Silly woman didnt even ask if I wanted a referral.
Once a depressive always a depressive huh?
Melbi x
Going for that bath now lol while daughter prepares an slamon salad - didnt ask me - just told me thats what i am having lol.
Melbi x
Nicky_Jane
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Salmon salad sounds nice - enjoy. Glad your feeling a little better, one day at a time eh? I also received a letter from the Primary Health Care Trust after GP referral, had to give them a ring just to get on the waiting list, was told it could take up to 5 months to get an actual appointment!!!! In the end I got a cancellation at the last min but my appointments are hit & miss as he (the counsellor) only does limited night appointments and I can't take any more time off work - things difficult enough as it is.
On the sleep matter my GP gave me temazipam to help break the cycle of staying awake, apparentley it becomes a habbit which is why you wake up at similar times. He would only give me a limited amount but it did help - perhaps you could ask your GP again and if that fails I'd try seeing another Dr.
Best wishes Nicky Jane x
Breezman
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Thank you for your post. Have had a difficult day today myself but am getting there. I'm remindede of a joke I heard recently, : My grandfather was a coach driver. After 40 years driving coaches he died peacefully oin his sleep. I'd like to die like that. Peacefully in nmy sleep. like my grandfather. not scrfeaming in terror like his passengers!
It helps to laugh, Iguess. And Melbi, you going for a bath and cleaning the bathroom is just so funny becvause it's typical. Somebody asks me about fuel pricing and I end up talking about Genghis khan, or hothouse tomatoes, or Pink Floyd. Poeple say to me, \"you're so intelligent\", but really they are wondering whaT THE HELL I'M TALKING ABOUT.
Tiny Tears, how are you? Hope you're doing OK. Please post something to let us know you're ok. xx
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Has taken me all morning to get in the bath - then took me ages to get back out agaion! Everything takes such a loing time.
Thinking baout it then preparing yourself to do it, move a little, stop a little - ytou get there in the end tho lol.
Tiny Tears is okay, have spoken to her this morning - I mean okay as in she is still with us - I'm quite sure she will be posting later.
Nicky Jane: I have had temazepam before (years ago)- havent a clue how you spell it. I have decied to be upfront and honest with my gp when I go back and tell her I am now using a concoction of over the counter products in an atempt to sleep. That could be classed as drug abuse could it not?
Sheesh woman - you are in a mess! :oops:
Need to get dried now..... I shall return! :run:
Melbi x
Breezman
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You forgot your meds. I do that often. Sometimes for days at a time. I can't explain it, but sometimes I just don't remember, even though I have to push my daily meds out of the way to have my morning coffee. I'm so absent-minded at times, yet I can recite mathematical formulae from my days at uni. the human brain is an amazing organ, and I think medical science knows a lot less about it than they know.
I have been taking Temazepam for years and it does help to get to sleep, but I somehow manage to wake after two hours and feel dazed and confused when I do. I wonder if I'd been born in South Africa whether I would be in tune with the local time zone?
Glad to hear you are on top of things at the moment. Stay well. xx
Nicky_Jane
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Oh Breezeman your joke mde me laugh...... Brightened up my afternoon. How long have you been on Temazepam? I was only given them for 2 weeks as they can be quite addictve according to my GP but just lately could really do with some more oh well will carry on regardless.... isn't that a song? now I'm wandering & forgetful too!!!!
Melbi
I thinks it's best that you are honest with your GP sometimes when I see my GP I write things down before I go as if I don't I get there & forget what I want to tell him.... crazy girl lol but if she continues to ignore your sleep deprivation I would try & see someone else - you can't put up with it forever.
Nicky Jane x x
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Yes that is a good idea Nicky Jane - I will write it down and if I can't bring myself to say it I will just pass the note to her.
Her choice then.
Thing is I dont go back to see her now until a weeks today - a week of no sleep? Hey! Maybe i will be sleeping by then? I am not going to even consider making an earlier appointment - that woulod be too stressful - picking up the phone - making an appointment -- getting ready to go out...... no I'm quite relaxed and happy here at the moment in my bed - letting the world pass me by. I dont want to upset all that - yesterday drained me - can;t go there again today.
Enjoying the moment.
I like that song - carry on regardless.
Melbi xxx
has anyone heard from PJ?
Melbi xxx
Breezman
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I'm not a compulsive pill-taker. Quite the reverse. So I have Temazepam tabs which have exceeded their use-by date. I take sleeping tablets when I feel I have to, but suffer the insomnia for the most part because I want to understand what causes it, rather than apply a bandaid to the symptom. I've been at this after many GP'S, many specialists and many blind alleys. I've been trying to understand this demon since 1968! I am not manic depressive, (or bi-polar), thank God!
And I am fortunate that I have a job where I can dodge the hard questions as long as I get my work done.
But we all have our demons to face, and mine reach far back to my childhood, and colour my every moment since. So Temazepam has been available for me for many years, but I only take it when I am so weary that to not take it would raise a question of safety for me and my workmates, and family.
I'm glad my little joke brought a smile to you. Take care, and remember to look after you too. xx
Nicky_Jane
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So sorry didn't mean to imply that you were a \"compulsive pill-taker\" (oops! beg forgiveness!!!!) I am just interested in comparing notes so to speak.... I've never taken these types of drugs before, am a newbie to this so curious. Although I've now had Temazepam, Diazepam and Citalopram so perhaps I'm now an old hand!
Should you still take them if they have passed their date.. don't they go off?
Your right about everyone having their demons it's just that sometimes you don't know what they are or where they've come from just hope you can beat them
Take care
Nicky Jane x
Breezman
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Nonetheless, I must say that Temazepam and Diazepam work as intended at least a year past their use by date, in my experience.
I think some people can put their past behind them and get on with Life's adventure, and others have this recurring situation which compels them to bow to convention, parents' will, school peer group pigeonholing etc.
Look after you, Nicky Jane, and my best wishes to you. xx
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Wrong thread - seem to have lost my way - who moved everything around while I was practising my relaxation techniques!
Stiltman has just put the ketle on in another thread - Any cream cakes left Nicky Jane?
Breezman - you want to borrow a couple of matchsticks?
Melbi x
Nicky_Jane
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Thanks for that Breezeman - would hate to offend anyone here!
Hi Melbi
Cream cakes all gone... someone ate 2!! lol But I will get you some more tomorrow if your good! I'm getting abit lost round here today myself - what a chatty lot we are this afternoon!
See you in another thread ......... We could play a game\" guess who is going to turn up next on the thread we're on\"???? Now I know I'm mad!!!!!!
Best wishes all
Nicky Jane xxx
Breezman
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Despite that I'm feeling much better for having slept. I hope you are all getting some early Spring weather which seems to renew the spirit. xx
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I sent the sleep fairy your way with strict instructions to come straight back here for my own personal use.
I turned my light out at 11:30pm - drifted off to sleep almost instantly - didn't wake until 5:20 this morning.
No hangover here :D
I didn't play the CD either!
Melbi x
Well done to you for sleeping :ok:
Can you imagine how well we would feel if we slept everynight?
Breezman
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So long since I had a good night's sleep and woke up feeling refreshed that I can't imagine it.
Glad you made a deal with the sleep fairy. I'll try her ministrations without Dr Johnny Walker tonight. For some weird reason I feel very sleepy this afternoon. Go with the flow I guess. Perhaps the unravelled sock of care is being rebundled, or spun, or something?
Thank you for your post Melbi. I hope the day brings you a day's worth of Life. xx