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This is more of a rant so i can feel better but is it just me or has perimenopause/menopause changed and ruined your life? Life as i once knew it will never be the same, i feel like im living in purgatory day after day....leading in to year after year, every month seems to keep getting worse! This horrible journey began for me 6 years ago when i was still in my 30s, i would pray every week that things would get better or after my period went away i would feel a little better...i can say this i havent seen a period in over 200 days and i feel worse! Over the years i have tried antidepressants (made things worse) tried hormones (made things worse) tried eating a little better (didnt notice any difference), tried vitamins with no change, tried probiotic and noticed no difference.....i have even been in counseling for 5 years in case its "all in my head".....nothing has helped me. My days now constist of waking up every morning not wanting to get out of bed, i drag myself to my bathroom to take my bath, i look in the mirror and see a bony sick lady who looks twice her age staring back at me. I try to force myself to eat throughout the day (im lucky if i get 4 bites in me), then for the next 12 hours i fight nausea and lower gut gurgling while the food attempts to digest, i feel tired and so depressed, i cant go any place or else my anxiety explodes, i cant feel happy about anything cause my stomach hurts, my head hurts, i feel lightheaded/dizzy, i have a ringing in my ears, i have lost most of my sense of taste, i have NO sex drive, i have facial twitches that i had never had before in my life, insomnia at times, my skin and hair are so dry nothing helps it.....and after having several medical tests the dr tells me "You are a completely healthy woman"! This is not healthy and i feel as though menopause has taken so much from me. I feel like im in the movie groundhog day where im reliving the same nightmarish day over and over, nothing is changing! I am so sorry all of you strong women have to suffer with this same problem as i do....they should label it a disease not a transition!
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