My BF has HSV2 and I don't, I'm so confused!

Hello, 

I'm new to this forum because I am desperate for answers, stories, knowledge about herpes. Although I've done some research online, I thought id share my story...

I met my soul mate two years ago in 2016 & fell completely head over heels for him. FYI, Im older than him by 5 yrs and so I've had more sexual encounters than him. A couple months into the relationship we decided to not use any protection. Later that same year I went to my doctor for a physical exam & concern (down there). Resulted I had caught a common vaginal infection called Bacterial Vaginosis. He got checked out too & he resulted fine since BV cannot be passed through sex and men cannot get it. I on the other hand received antibiotics to treat the infection.

A year into our relationship I got STD/HIV testing and resulted negative. Continued having unprotected sex with my bf.

Fast forward to 2018, my bf & I remained monogamous throughout our relationship until 3 weeks ago I made the selfish decision to cheat on him on June 20. I met this person off a dating site and met up for a drink on an empty stomach, next thing I'm in a room with him performing oral and then proceeded with safe sex. (Although he never disclosed his medical history with me) I felt so guilty for my actions immediately after so i rinsed with mouth wash. I didn't contact this person after our encounter because I regretted my decision and didn't plan on seeing him again. That same week, I spent time with my bf kissing him, unprotected oral/sex as usual. Towards the end of June, my bf opens up to me and says he noticed scabs on the shaft of this penis. He didn't think much of it because he has experienced scabs before due to deep penetration. Out of curiosity I asked when did he begin to notice the scabs. He responded,  "About a week". At that point my heart dropped because it was around the time after my infidelity. However, I remained calmed and hopeful that it wasn't anything serious because I didn't have any symptoms. The following day he researched some more and came to the conclusion that he may have gotten herpes and didn't know how. In a moment of panic, I confessed because my conscious guilt had been eating me up inside. As expected, we broke up that day. But the day after, on July 1, we went to get tested together. I was examined down there & told there was nothing visible. On the other hand, the doctor examined my bf & told him he had herpes. Our relationship had hit rock bottom, I've never felt ashamed, disgusted, stupid, embarrassed of myself, I fell in severe depression.

All I could think of is accepting the consequences, get the love of my life back & get justice.

I contacted the person via text. He never responded, looked like he got a google number and ghosted me. So I got on the dating site & messaged him. I didn't tell him what was going on in my relationship (to not scare him away, also so i can get more info on him, & or maybe schedule another meet up and have police arrest him on site.) I said "Where you go? Thought we would meet up again?" He responds, "I didn't wanna tell you this in person but your vagina smelled bad, maybe got a yeast infection, should get it checked out." I said, "not embarrassed, I've never had a yeast infection in my life, i would know if i did, why you acting like this". He says, "just get tested" He's acting very suspicious now. (I still want to get a lawsuit on this person but haven't yet talked to a lawyer yet, but will.)

In terms of my bf & I, we both have strong feelings for one another despite the pain I've caused him, he's has giving me a final chance to prove to him that I will be a better person. 

Im going to seek a psychiatrist to learn to deal with my consequence but this has already been a traumatic experience Im so blessed to still have my soul mate.

RESULTS: Came in today July 9 & I resulted with a negative for herpes, & other STDs while my bf tested positive for HSV2 only. Im so confused because IM certain I gave it to him. Plus we had unprotected oral/sex at the time he was experiencing scabs before the blisters appeared before we went to get tested. Also the day we got tested, I sucked the tip of his dick & avoided coming contact with the blisters. I know its stupid, but i was so sure I already had the virus in my system if I gave it to him orally. But he has the Type 2 Herpes virus & i thought I had the type 1. Im so confused!

The day I went in for testing I was told by the nurse that they couldn't test me for herpes due to the fact that i showed no physical symptoms but the doctor who examined my bf prior to me said he would still request herpes result from my blood test. Now could my testing be a false negative? Im aware that herpes can remain dormant for years but results can still be detected. So none of this makes any sense to me.

Please anyone who understands and lives with herpes, help me understand what is going on? Why is my bf positive & i am not, and what shall I do? Im expecting to hear responses that he may have had it all along. But he has had less sexual partners, always protected himself, he's vegan for 3 yrs, but has a ton of stress, anxiety and history of depression. His mom was diagnosed with herpes a year ago she caught from a partner but not sure which type she has. Also my dad has HSV2 from cheating on my mom 8 yrs ago, but I've always been careful not to share his drinks. Even if he has type 2.

I will respond back to everyone who comments and provide more info. Thank you so much!

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