Need help with withdrawel

I am in uk so I am not going to tell you how easy it is to get them sent straight to your door next day delivery boxes of 200s 30mg no wonder this country has such an addition problem this is all legal in uk as well shocking I am on a really good wage but I started taking as stress relief I could function fine taking 30 at 1 go am not proud of that bye the way just shows how quick tolerance plays apart then the fear of withdrawal I would like to keep in touch least ave got you guys if a fall off the wagon thanks sozy and Alexandra am a 16 stone man used to body build and a feel like crying typing this 🙈❤️❤️❤️👍Thanks guys xxxxxx

Oh James, I cannot imagine taking 30 a day, I think my highest was 10? Don't fall off that wagon, I did I had 28 given to me Friday, I still took 6, 6 yesterday & 6 today, oh the shame!! I now have 7 left until Wednesday!! I have a prescription for 56 every 2 weeks, but when I see the Dr Wed, I'm asking for weekly, I HAVE to beat this, it's so hard, open my eye's & in they go, am I not ready?? I want it so bad so WHAT is stopping me, from previous experience I know I can do this within 2 weeks, it's just soo hard to start taking my 'prescribed' 4 a day, I know by day 4/5 I will feel the 4 like I feel the 6, I don't get it, I want this so bad, what is wrong with me?? Are you still taking? ((((hugs)))) xx

No I havent made any purchases yet don't intend to sometimes I get weak after alcohol or if I have a big job coming to manage but you will be fine don't let the DHC steal your natural enioyment so what you took six had a buzz probly were doing stuff like super women next time take 5 and so on and so trust me I couldn't enjoy anything without them it was that bad for my wife's 30th we went on a cruise and I had to take 200 30mg prescribed from online and hide that the whole time from my wife just so I could enjoy a Caribbean cruise trip of a life time and needed to take them bloody things with to keep happy for my wife's sake who has no idea so do it now before you end up like me am feeling better but a like a bottle of Rosie now can't win can you lol or you could just send your prescription to and I will put them in the bin for you 😬😘 take care let me know how it goes xxx

Well done James (no YET) you have come so far, my gosh I cannot inagine how you coped, I thought I was in trouble but wow!! You are a real trouper...I understand how you felt on the cruise, isn't it just the worst when your loved one's think your happy & full of life but really those poxy things are doing it...Please please stay strong, you say yourself how bad it was, you wanna go through that again?? Of course you don't! How long has it been since you took anything?

Yep I took 6 a day for the last 3 days, my usual dose, but the day before I got those 18 I didn't take any (didn't have any) I have taken 3 today (all I have) for now as I get 14 later but & it's a big but, I am praying I find the strength to just take 3/4 tomorrow, same Wednesday, I'm seeing the Dr then, I will get 28 as I'm asking for weekly prescriptions now, it will help me!! Yep I've felt like Superwoman now I feel supercrap...I long for the day people say "are you on drugs?" I love that, it means I've cut right down & my eye's are wide, pupils are wide, because everyone see's my eye's half shut my pupils like pinholes all the time, even to myself I look high as a kite, cocaine wise,  but I love it as it means the worst is over!!  I'm hoping to do a fast taper, as follows..starting Wed, 4, 3, 4, 3, 3, 3, 2 for a few days then one.....Hoping!! I think my fears are more than the withdrawel, it's not having that feeling anymore, that's where I'll struggle most!! Not a big drinker, 2 wines & floppppp! Will be nice to enjoy the odd glass once or twice a week to celebrate...Not a huge fan so not worried I'll turn to alchol Can I ask if your in the UK? I am, just not sure if we can say as it's all ANON XXX

I never knew this and thank God, I'd be dead for sure! I always thought those sites knock you off at the end of the process? Surely this can't be legal? The closest I got was buying 200 eherdrine pills online... God knows what I was thinking... Not even sure if it's illegal but I stopped after serious heart flutters... Scary shyte!

Yeah mate it's legal you answer all the doctors questions online he writes your prescription sends it pharmacy next day delivery they get away with it as they don't prescribe you for another month plus the docs that work for these sites have no souls like a murder defence lawyer it's not cheap bro they make a killing put off it so don't even research or go there and there is no way am telling the trusted sites to tempting because believe most are frauds you get asperins lol

Lol, with my luck I'd probably get Smarties. Never knew that though but don't worry I won't be trying to buy any.

Am not sure how it works either just post here

Ok, thanks James. 4pm saw me enter day 10 without the beast! It's been a ten year struggle... I spent 18 months on Subs got off them and was clean for a bit but due to back issue ended back on DHC, up to 40 a day. I'm done for good, no more!

Heyyy Nick, so glad you did this, I was scared I was gonna lose you, better to be in one disscusion Me to as far as navigation!!  Hopefully you can see my reply above to James so I don't have to write the whole thing again to you xx

Nick, well done, 10 days off those demons!! How are you coping?? Up to 40 a day, how did you do this? Jump? Can I ask how many you were taking the last week or two before you started day 1? I would love to be 10 days clean, but I'm feeling bad, you & James were taking SO many, I sound pathetic "can't get off 6 a day, can't cope without them) I should be ashamed, but I promise to me it feels just as bad, I'm scared, the 3 I've had today should keep me fine, it's tomorrow that worries me, will I take 4, 3, 6?? Sorry to both of you, but thank you, I have never talked so much about this or had support like I now feel I'm getting from you both...I really wish I could say more to help you xx

 

Thanks Free. I'm feeling really crap today... Been awake since 2am ugh! I drank wine last night... Seemed like a good idea at the time but now I feel as sick as a dog and hurt all over. Sweaty too. At my worst, a few years back I was up to 40 a day plus chewing Fentanyl and some morphine pills here and there... That's when I went on to Subs. This time I'm coming off about 15 + a day so not as bad but the dose was creeping up again. I hate the b@stard things! Sorry guys just having a bad moment? Gonna be a tough day, I'm so restless.

Freedom, I'm confused by your numbers. What is your plan? Not judging at all just confused. You can get over the worst in 3 or 4 days and then never have to take the wretched things again. Or maybe your doc can prescribe a milder opiate like codein to ease you off? I so want you to do this, I'm sure you will. x

Hi, sorry to hear your feeling like crap, stay strong!! Occaionsly I have a glass or two of wine, but not enough to get hangovers...Are you saying your on 15+ Subs a day, subs? these are what block out anything else you may take yeh? I've been told these & methadone are harder than everything to get off!! I wish I could give you a hug, you will get better, before long you'll look back (being nice & healthy) & hopefully never touch anything again!! 

To be honest I'm not sure I have a plan, taken 6 again today 6-8 is what I've been taking for just over a year, I started them again because I confessed to my Daughter that I was back on oxy's, chewing up to 150mg every morning!! I feel I shouldn't even be on this site as people on here are doing so much harder than I have to! I don't understand why I can't take 6 5 4 3 2 1 done, 6 days then some Wd's & slowly back to health..Am I kidding myself, Dr's day after tomorrow where I will pick up 28 (asking for weekly's to help, normally 56 2weekly) Surely if I can go from 150mg's of oxy's to 6/8 DHC 30mg then this should be a breeze!! I want to do it Nick, I need to do it but something is stopping me, my name is Sarah, I choose Freedom because that is what I want!! Does the wine mess with the subs or was it BC you drank a lot? Stay strong Nick, your feeling like crap & yet you still stop by to help me I am proud of you, wrap up warm, plenty water etc, al these things you know! There is light at the end of the tunnel, look at what you used to take!! You are amazing! Thank you for caring xxxx

Hey there. No, I was on Subs some years back for 18 months but got off them and was clean for a bit. They are tricky to come off for sure but I found help online and managed it. I did one hell of a taper! There seems  to be a more certain timeline with Subs and withdrawal, that was the case for me anyway. Listen Sarah... I have been at both ends, I was even stuck on co codamal for a while so don't ever think your habit is petty. Or that you should be able to breeze through without a sweat, it's not the case I know. The thing is though, you CAN do this but I think and please forgive me if I'm wrong, that you are going round in circles a little? If you can't stick to a taper (most of us can't) then you might just have to plan a jump? Please prove me wrong and do this! I had someone hold my pills in the pat but I'm an addict and I managed to speak my way into getting more than I agreed to. I'm a good liar especially to myself. I understand you are scared... What I found helped was just being honest to myself and kind of letting go to the idea I was gonna hurt for a bit. Don't give it any power! I drank way too much yesterday... I never get hangovers BC I'm usually so banged up with opiates. I hurt all over! Ugh! Thanks for your support. x

Thanks Nick, 

you are right, huge circles, that's why I need my Son involved, he will help, I'm just scared of never feeling my old self again, not the happy high self but the clean sober self, been too long

I am also a good liar to myself!!

Yep gonna write a letter to myself today, my goals, my dreams, MY PLAN & how much I will enjoy life once clean

Be careful with that drink, to to easy to get addicted & very bad Wd's

Power?? You just hit nail on head, that's it I have to stop their power, stop those stupid pills ruling me, it's my brain, my mouth my stomach, why should they win!!

Hope your ok today Nick, sending hugs xxxx