newly diagnosed

I think it's perfectly OK to come on here and speak about feeling absolutely devestated by your diagnosis and other feelings you may have.  Everyone handles things very differently and everyone reacts differently to the disease.. I had a very rare response to it and was laid up in bed for 3 weeks with severe neuropathy so bad, I had to go to the ER.  Nothing worse than feeling like a million fire ants are biting you under your skin and down into your bone in your buttock and back of thighs, with electrical shooting pains to the locations of the sores, in your rectum, your vagina and down to your feet.  I was devesatated, I felt with the hell of a life I've been through, that this was the worst, because I can't change it.  I can't overcome the disease, it will always be there.  I can't create success from the disease.  So yes, you have a right to feel what you do and when you're newly diagosed, it does feel like your world is falling apart.  It's been almost 5 months for me and I don't feel that way anymore, but I did for about 2 or 3 months.  I don't really cry about it anymore and I get obs monthly and the other 70 % of the time I'm not having an OB, I have some sort of symptom that reminds me I have it.  

Do not feel bad about giving yourself some time to grieve this and don't let anyone make you feel bad about that either.  I had a couple people do that to me and they can go you know what themselves.  You have the right to mourn through it and when you're done taking the time YOU need, not what others say; then you will start to heal and continue life like it didn't happen.  Feel free to reach out to me privately whenever you want.. I have similiar childhood issues as well.