Newly diagnosed: I feel like my life is over.. also, I have NO idea how to tell my boyfriend.
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Lets start out with the fact that I am completely heartbroken... all self-confidence that I had kinda got shot down the drain today. I feel dirty, gross and disgusted with myself... and if I'm so grossed out how is anyone else supposed to see me.
I have been with my boyfriend for the past 4 months, this is my first mature relationship and I have never felt this way about anyone. I love him. But of course, I fear that when I let him know that I went to the doctor and got these results, my automatic fear is that he will never want to be sexually involved with me again... (he’s the sweetest guy so him just being like BYE would never happen) I really can't see anyone wanting to be sexually involved with me again.. I know maybe I'm over reacting... but I just have NO idea how to start this conversation.. especially because I think I may have contracted it from him through oral. It just would kill me if this was something to ruin something that's so important to me... and I know there’s the whole "If he’s not willing to still around than f*ck him" but I honestly don't know if I even would expect him too because I feel to gross... I guess this all comes to the conclusion that...
1. I feel like a normal sex life is impossible.... like spontaneity = down the drain.. and I'm only 19
2. How should I break the news.. in the best way possible?
3. Having kids is one of the MOST important things to me in life... how is that going to be effected?
and lastly and most importantly..
How did you guys gain and find your confidence back.. because I dont want to feel grossed out about myself forever.
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Sassy2543 kkotz123
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I just found out that I have HSV. I feel so much like knot felt -- disapponted, disgusted, angry. I feel like my life is ruined! Who will want me now??
I just met a guy a few weeks ago. We haven't had sex but he did perform oral on me a few days before I had any symptoms. I know I didn't get it from him and I know that his chances of catching it through that one-time act is extremely low. My problem is that he is the first guy that I have met in years that I actually really like and I'm scared this will run him off. He will be home in 10 days and I know I have to tell him. He's been prying and asking me what my problem is through texting (he's offshore so it's how we have to communicate) but I don't want to tell him that way. I don't know what more to say other than that I am just scared! Scared for my future, scared to be alone forever.... I'm just scared.