No zest for life .... nothing excites me.

Lori, you are not alone. I feel as though I’ve lost all motivation to do anything. I have to push myself to exercise and do basic household things like clean my house. This is very difficult. I’ve also recently gained weight and most of it is in my belly. Feel like I’m not myself. Hang in there. A

I posted something like this about a week ago. I don't have the anxiety attacks anymore and the low moods and depression seem to be gone.....I feel now that I'm at a blaaaaaaa everything is boring stage and have no feelings. I don't want to go back to crying over anything and feeling anxious all the time, but I'm kind of concerned that I just don't give a s**t and nothing excites me. I do go with my friends sometimes, but could take it or leave it, their conversations seem silly or meaningless to me. My coworkers conversations make me want to roll my eyes, they blab on and on about these things about work and ib my mind I think let ot go there are bigger things to worry about in this world. Maybe after you have been through hell and back, stupid conversations just aren't relevant?

I still put make up on everyday and make sure I look presentable, I wouldn't skip my yoga sessions but I don't have the will to do my old workouts.

I still have feelings for my sons at least, if they are upset or hurting I feel it, but I used to be more thoughtful of others, probably at times too soft, now that rarely happens.

I'm the same as you, I did my flower and vegetable garden, but don't feel excited about watching it grow. I do still enjoy watching the birds though.

Even though I feel so much calmer than last year, I find it very concerning I feel so flat and don't care. We are supposed to cry sometimes and should feel excited sometimes.

I did have slight a slight anxiety attack a few days ago, a guy who contacts me sometimes sent me a text, I got stressed over that, I think he gets my hormones moving, so I put a stop to that, but shouldn't I want that sometimes.

I don't know Lori, this is a big confusing mess with very little true answers.

SO relate! Always athletic, thin. Was an aerobics instructor in college. Now days, (past several years and counting), a gradual decline began. Now I know it was peri.

Laid off in 2009. Lots of stress and strain with different things. Divorce, death of beloved dog. Thought it was depression. Nope! Had to work to support my son and I. Couldn't work if I had to now. Fatigue and dizziness. Can't drive most days. Horribly debilitating! Eyes itch so bad that make up is almost a thing of the past. Showering is a chore. Cancelled appointments, disconnecting from family/friends, etc. It's brutal. Vomiting, nausea, diarrhea, the list goes on.

Hoping as Oct marks 1 year no period things will look up? Lost hope right now. Barely able to keep up with house stuff. Body aches SO much. Just ran out of cbd oil. That REALLY helped the aches, but that's about it. Feeling like a failure, compared to the strong woman I was even 4 years ago. 😕

You're not alone, as you know. It just SUCKS for us right now. NEVER thought life would be over at 50...

Lori,

YES!

Before this nightmare started in June, I would hit the day so excited about what I was going to accomplish! I'd get out my planner around 6:00am with my morning cup of coffee and organize my day, all of my big plans, email, texts, make my to-do list, schedule appointments, go out for my bike ride or brisk walk - wave to my neighbors - I have tons of hobbies and just love and am grateful for each day that I am blessed with . 

I think that is what has been the HARDEST! I woke up starting in June and I was wiped. I figured - no worries - I will be back at it when I'm feeling better in a week or so! Must just be a bad cycle month. But then by the end of June I would wake up and noticed I didn't care about anything. And that scared me. I think it took a week or two just to get over that - the fact that I didn't care. I kept looking at that symptom on the list of 66 peri symptoms  "lethargy" and I was in denial that the hormones had that much to do with my well being physically and mentally. 

I'm starting to feel better. I'm on that cream. I am taking one day at a time. I do not recognize my home right now. I haven't made the bed since June. That fact alone is beyond symbolic of what is going on hormonally for me.  I've had to surrender to everything. I don't recognize my hair since I've not had it done since May. I attended a large annual conference at that time - rewatched the videos of myself - going what in the world? How long before I am there again?  This hit me out of nowhere. 

I was feeling exactly the same a year ago! I used to shop online nice cloths, shoes etc and suddenly I had no interest at all. I was thinking to give up my career, to stop my training...no motivation to wake up, no will to see my friends...no life at all. I absolutely know that feeling! 💐

I was feeling exactly the same a year ago! I used to shop online nice cloths, shoes etc and suddenly I had no interest at all. I was thinking to give up my career, to stop my training...no motivation to wake up, no will to see my friends...no life at all. I absolutely know that feeling! 💐

I feel the same, no zest. Feel like the walking dead. Gardens are overgrown, so is my belly! Nothing excites me, not even a good piece of chocolate!! Just an empty shell. Hope this will pass, it has to.