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Not Sure What To Do About My OCD

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kayla1865
kayla1865

I have Harm OCD, apparently. I've been very scared in the past, because I didn't know if I was a full-fledged homicidal maniac, in the making. Now, I have these thoughts like, "What if I run out into that traffic?" But the thoughts that scare me even more, are the homicidal thoughts. These thoughts usually consist of stabbing someone. I know I'd never do any of these things, but I keep thinking that I want to.

When these thoughts arise, I try and stay away from everyone, period. And I also, avoid sharp objects, or anything that I can hurt someone with, right then and there. I'm scared that I'll end up acting on these things. I'm not sure what to do with myself. I want to lock myself away in a pyschiatric ward when these thoughts come on.

I already have Generalized Anxiety Disorder, and I have panic attacks every other day. Sometimes, everyday. My anxiety is high, half the time, maybe more than that.

I just want to know that I'm not a crazy person for thinking these things. sad

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  • kayla1865
    kayla1865

    Posted

    Oh, and these thoughts started coming on today, after watching documentaries on psychopaths and murderers.
    • lynne82155
      lynne82155 kayla1865

      Posted

      Dont watch those type of things if its going to make your situation worse

      that is common sense.

      Stay Strongcool

    • michaelall35712
      michaelall35712 kayla1865

      Posted

      Pure and simple don't watch shows like this! Don't watch shows that show violence.  Watch good feeling, uplifting shows.
  • lynne82155
    lynne82155 kayla1865

    Posted

    Ok you have to go and speak to your doctor or psychiatrist about this.

    You are not crazy and please believe me you dont want to be locked up in a psychiatric hospital I can tell you from personal experience it is not a nice place to be.

    You can get the help you need as an out patient

    But you have to go and get the help

    Stay Strong

     

    • kayla1865
      kayla1865 lynne82155

      Posted

      I'm just scared of my own thoughts, is all. Thanks hon. I'm going to call someone today, for sure. I'm tired of these thoughts & feelings.
  • ren_vincent
    ren_vincent kayla1865

    Posted

    Me too kyla, i have mild attack everyday since monday... But deep breathing helps me a lot. I take xanax once in a while as needed... I just had my diagnoses 2 weeks ago. My son and i are just alone at home. And he is 3 years old...
    • kayla1865
      kayla1865 ren_vincent

      Posted

      These thoughts are so intrusive, and I can't stand having them...
  • allison1984
    allison1984 kayla1865

    Posted

    Hi kayla ive got ocd also and have suffered from harm thoughts for roughly 10 years so I know how bad they really are i get them over my pets i absolutely love animals and im so against animal cruelty but get these awful thoughts that will pop in my head what ive read about ocd is we get thoughts about the things we find so horrid because its the opposite to our personalty and creates high anxiety cause we don't wont to kill people or animals. Best i do when I get harm thoughts is say to my self / what ever i know id never hurt anything so p*ss of ocd / or ill even get a knife and sit near my dog and ill be so freaking scared cause id not trust myself i may really snap? But ill sit there with the knife and after a while the anxiety calms down and I didn't hurt my dog the more your scared of the thoughts or images you will keep the ocd alive. Good luck i hope i dont sound like a nut holding a knife to my dog lol im a nice person really :-)
    • kayla1865
      kayla1865 allison1984

      Posted

      I get them about animals sometimes, too. I think I've had this problem, for a while, since I was younger. I've always had OCD, and I didn't even know it.
    • allison1984
      allison1984 kayla1865

      Posted

      Ive had ocd for 15 years but started with the harm ocd at 23 just remember your a good person thats why the horrible thoughts bug you so badly
    • kayla1865
      kayla1865 allison1984

      Posted

      To me, it doesn't make sense that people would have this... Back in the day, people must have been institutionalized for even SAYING they felt like that.
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