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Not Sure What To Do About My OCD

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kayla1865
kayla1865

I have Harm OCD, apparently. I've been very scared in the past, because I didn't know if I was a full-fledged homicidal maniac, in the making. Now, I have these thoughts like, "What if I run out into that traffic?" But the thoughts that scare me even more, are the homicidal thoughts. These thoughts usually consist of stabbing someone. I know I'd never do any of these things, but I keep thinking that I want to.

When these thoughts arise, I try and stay away from everyone, period. And I also, avoid sharp objects, or anything that I can hurt someone with, right then and there. I'm scared that I'll end up acting on these things. I'm not sure what to do with myself. I want to lock myself away in a pyschiatric ward when these thoughts come on.

I already have Generalized Anxiety Disorder, and I have panic attacks every other day. Sometimes, everyday. My anxiety is high, half the time, maybe more than that.

I just want to know that I'm not a crazy person for thinking these things. sad

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  • vns01
    vns01 kayla1865

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    I used to get thoughts like these a lot as well. Maybe not in the sense I was doing the stabbing, but just the thought of it happening to someone. I also got them after watching way too many murder documentaries. Trust me, just stop watching them.

    What it ended up being for me was just a fascination with crime. I think I could've made a decent detective or forensics expert, because I thought it was so interesting.

    I have a pal who has more intrusive violent thoughts than I do. A psychiatrist might really be able to help--they can be much more understanding than you think.

    • kayla1865
      kayla1865 vns01

      Posted

      I know I'm not the only one... I have a friend, who deals with the same issue. I just feel like a monster sometimes.
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