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OTHER PEOPLES ACTIONS HAVE SUCH AN AFFECT !!

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vicky51471
vicky51471

HI ALL

its a bit a rant really I have the worst day ever too messed up to go into.

There have been people in my life that if it wasn’t for their actions I wouldn’t be so messed up I’m sure. There’s  lots  of people out there that would be the same of course I am not the only one.

we mind our own business but things that happen we are not able to control.

the two men in my life let me down in such bad ways m6 Dad well he is no Dad of mine he did something so bad that forgiveness is no5 an option. I have not got  night terrors because of his actions.

i loved him so much ive lost him.

 My husband well he had affairs and he was abusive a lot more in between.

so then I thought about an incident when I was 14 that was not my fault, so why do I think  it’ is? 

So as my life’s gone on ive had shock after shock not my doing but oh how it’s affected me all these things.

Having the pan of what others inflicted on me is burning me Out

why can’t people think of what they do before they do it ??

confused sad crying.

try8ng to make sense of things that I can’t ge5 answers I can’t.

i feel completely tormented.

i have also found out another massive shock a family secret only 3 know and it’s weighing heavy on me to speak up.

sorry for the rant

vicky xx

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  • mark77234
    mark77234 vicky51471

    Posted

    Hi Vicky I no something of what you are feeling and again I think and feel the same way confused upset with no control over the things in life all I can say is been instructed is go to the doctor and tell them all they hopefully will put you in touch with people who think on your behalf to help put things in perspective sorry this is the way the country going today Mark best of luck Vicky you shouldn't have to be alone and you are not

    • vicky51471
      vicky51471 mark77234

      Posted

      Hi mark

      im am sorry that you feel this way too it’s an awful place to be not in control or can’t do anything about things. Feeling overwhelmed 

      i have been waiting to have a CPN again when I moved back with my mum they said cause I had false nails and I could speak I was ok. No never mind the things I was saying and how distraught i ways. They stoped. So my dr wrote to them I saw a lady above the other one  I saw she said I would need a CPN back I’m still waiting. I know I am not the only one who’s in the position too 

      i just feel I need to off load to finally speak I am ready.

       I am on so many meds just waiting and waiting. 

       It’s so horrible I feel so alone yet have people around me.

      feel for anyone who feels like this.

      i hope you are ok

      take care

      vickyx

       

    • mark77234
      mark77234 vicky51471

      Posted

      Hi again yes I went through the same month far month year far year but in the end got someone to listen abit they are not interested in what is the problem you got in other words what makes you feel like that making you wait that you will kill yourself save them money fixing the problem means that the government will put more money into their program from over seas people don't matter just like Germany in 1939 the start of the war is here history tells us that? All the best mark

    • vicky51471
      vicky51471 mark77234

      Posted

      Hi mark,

      live had a call last week and I can see a CPN on Thursday this week.

      i am hoping it will help I do need to talk and I had a CPN before and it was helping..

      i know that this may not work I’ve tried so many things but I do hope it will help me make sense of things.

      All the best

      take care 

      vicky 🙂

  • mark77234
    mark77234 vicky51471

    Posted

    Hi Vicky

    I've talked only to have them attack me the problems with the social health esa cutting off my money not that it's much going to be alone living on the street soon luck to you

    • vicky51471
      vicky51471 mark77234

      Posted

      Hi mark

        I’m sorry to hear you are facing  these difficult problems at the moment.

      i hope you can’t get some help with this. 

      Such a shame we do not have the empathy and help we need at these times!

      i can only say I wish you luck and hope you can get some support right now.

      please stay in contact if you would like too!!,

      take care Mark

      Vicky🙂

       

    • mark77234
      mark77234 vicky51471

      Posted

      Hi Vicky thanks for your reply

      It's been four years now since I walked out of work because of what they were doing to me which was really the start of my anxiety attacks and my depression with all the feelings of inadequacy of coping with these things that were happening to me with the other things to do with the police and court's of untrue aceraions but I new that the truth would come out in court that she was lieing but going through that was bad enough taking three years in going to court?

      But it's was the things that happen that the people who you would think we're there for you like my lawyer and baluster even the judge asked questions about what they were doing in covering up things making out that I was really bad with things he didn't ask me tho I tried to tell them but he the judge stopped me they is so many things that I no at the time to that I thought I could bring it up to get justice from the system and police but with so much Against me I couldn't cope in getting action from people who could help me? Along with the other things like help with the social security getting some money with them taking it from me once they had given it to me over all these years I want to die and still do so many things wrong can't live in a place that these things have no justification of justice no more up in the doctors it says that 10,000 people die ayear 54% of them are men that's more than die in a war people complain about that if it was a war not if you got mental health problems? Your husband should care about you and how you feel and not make things worse for you you got your back to the wall as well be lucky Vicky thanks mark

  • mark77234
    mark77234 vicky51471

    Posted

    We talked to each other before I think I really appreciate your words but I really have given up trying to get help it's time to end me thinking about what happened but I can't stop it getting into my brain at all times of the day's night sleeping is the only way don't get much of that got pip at the end of the mouth not going to make it so no money again from them doctors are saving money in cutting my painkillers away from me so I take paracetmol a box a day to cover the pain my leg and back is in daily ?

    Good luck Vicky thanks mark

  • jakejhonson44
    jakejhonson44 vicky51471

    Posted

    Hey Vicky! I'm so sorry to hear about what happened to you. How are you doing now? I hope you're fine.

  • abrasive
    abrasive vicky51471

    Posted

    Ones torment over a life time should not endure such sorrow.
  • mark77234
    mark77234 vicky51471

    Posted

    To the person abrasive with so much of this going on in this country a lone after years centuries since mankind became aware of his ability to understand everything and think about right and wrong moral in making law's in goving the planet?

    Doing away with justice in the form of punishment for murder and people who have a view of bad things against others just because?

    As people what is the question to be answered by the government does seemed to be looking out for us?

    They do what's best for themselves and people like themselves rich people???

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