Please help really have had enough
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Hi
It's me again.....I have had enough now I was so ill this has been going on for 16 months I started on 50mg of sertraline then moved up to 100mg a week later I noticed a improvement in depression & anxiety I've started laughing again and have a lot more intrest in things including my kids,but the last 3 days have not been good I started feeling quite emotional then sick and now today I'm obsessed with the intrusive thoughts I don't know if I'm over reacting am I just not giving it enough time please someone help me I don't know if o can fight this anymore....what's wrong with me?
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weenett Katyf
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Xxxxxxxxre Katyf
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Katyf Xxxxxxxxre
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Chick17418 Katyf
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Please go back to your docs it's not fair your feeling like this. I'm very up & down it is driving me mad, I'm almost waiting to go down hill when ever I feel good, I keep questioning if this drug is any good, but then unfortunately we hear more about the negatives then the positives. Take care & try to focus on your babies. Xx
Katyf Chick17418
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Aww thank you for the message sorry to hear your struggling also,it's so frustrating I know what you mean you do start to wonder if the tablets are working,really hope you start to feel better x
a-new-day Katyf
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Katyf a-new-day
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Hi,that's such a positive message and I'm very grateful,I feel so upset today because I know the tablets have worked on my depression & anxiety but I don't think I can get passed these thoughts I don't think I can carry on x
Nementh Katyf
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Heya Katy,
It's ok, we all get this where we have a period of time we'll feel almost alright and then we suddenly have a patch where things go a bit awry. It may have even been started by a trigger? If you think back can you remember anything that upset or distressed you? Quite often there is, and what i've been doing from CBT is looking at the thoughts and situations that cause me to overthink and take that thought in a catastrophic way, because they can usually be disproved. Mind you i'm not saying it's easy! I frequently get upset over the thoughts I go back and look at, and my fiancee helps me to really analyze the likelihood of that thought being true or not, so far it's been going ok.
From what i've been learning, our emotions, physical symtoms, thoughts and behaviours are all connected, for example, you got emotional which led to you feeling sick (physical), which in turn led to the intrusive thoughts. The way we can help ourselves is by breaking this cycle, this is done by removing one of those things. With me, i've become a massive hypochondriact with my anxiety, and i've been constantly freaking out by misinterpreting palpitations and stomach pains as a heart attack. But, there is evidence against this - i've never had one before, i've had 3 recent ECG's that showed everything to be normal, I have a blood pressure monitor that also shows any irregularities and that has been clearn, my pulse is normal even with the palpitations, the pain is always brief and never lasts, and palpitations can be caused by both anxiety and Sertraline.
I know it's helped me and it may well be worth you looking up at some CBT therapy, it teaches you how to look introspectively at your thoughts, analyse them and disprove them to break the cycle of catastrophic thinking. I signed up to a 5 week course, free on the NHS called "Lets Talk - Panic", it's not group therapy, but we're learning how to cope and control these feelings and thoughts, and I think it may help you as well. If you don't want to go to something like that I'd still recommend reading up about CBT online as there is a lot of free information and self help guides that can explain it to you.
Sorry, I seem to have a penchant for writing essays! But I hope it helps.
Take care
Katyf Nementh
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Thank you so much for your lovely reply I'm glad your finding things a bit easier I am waiting for an appointment for therapy,I'm sad to say I don't think I can carry on the thoughts are so intense I don't think the will ever go I really am upset as the tablets have got rid of the anxiety and depression I wish you all the best x
weenett Katyf
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Nementh Katyf
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Your brain is more powerful than all of the worlds supercomputers combined, and probably the single most advanced organ in known time, you can go on, and while these thoughts may not just evaporate like we'd want them to, we do have the capacity to control them, it's just a matter of learning how. It's scary, yes, because we have to face them and scrutinise them, but it is possible, it's just learning a new skill.
I'm trying to teach my fiancée guitar from scratch at the moment, and bless her she's not the most physically capable, but she's trying, and slowly, I'm seeing and hearing a difference, even though she gets upset and frustrated herself.
While it may seem trivial, these differences matter, and I believe you can do it :-)
Katyf weenett
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No carry on with life, I don't think it's the tablets they have helped it's the thoughts I can't get passed them
Nementh Katyf
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Katy, yes you can, even considering those thoughts, life is too precious. These thoughts can be overcome and sedated, but other options can't. I would urge you to seek some therapy and get to your doctor tomorrow to explain how you're feeling and the thoughts you're having. And please don't feel like you're alone as to some extent we're all in the same boat with you
weenett Katyf
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weenett Nementh
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Katyf weenett
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I am seeing my psychiatrist Friday she's very good,I just don't understand how I was getting better then seem to have dropped back don't know if that's normal thankyou for your concern x
Katyf Nementh
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Aww thank you I just worry so much about the thoughts I have been so ill and have managed to get better but this part I'm finding extremely hard thank you replying to me x
lorna811 Katyf
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Don't give up..you must have worked so hard at getting through days/weeks like this before the Sertraline. We are all worthy of living even if at times it is so hard to see this. Please fight on, we all know how tiring it sometimes can be to see past the dark thoughts but there wil, without any doubt, be some good days just round the corner.
Katyf lorna811
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Aww thanks so much,I can't believe how far I've come in the last 16 months but the thoughts are going to destroy me x
lorna811 Katyf
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I know those dark thoughts but I also know that they can be over ridden by your desire to live,to be there for.. a daughter's wedding, a grandchild, anything that you love more than yourself, or someone that you don't want to be hurt by the consequences of giving in. I don't know your personal situation, but I have 4 kids and I do not want them to suffer the way I did when my father killed himself when I was 9. There are days when I think I would love to give in to the dark thoughts but when they clear I am so glad I didn't. Try to stay strong, hope your tomorrow is brighter.