Please talk some sense into me..

I am getting really confused and could with some advice. My surgery is booked in two and a half weeks and I am having huge second thoughts. 

I am 43 with children and I have already had one THP! So you would think I would be much more decisive than I am. Please tell me at what stage did you have your THP:

I can not get out of a chair properly, I struggle to get in and out of car (it is quite big) I can't really shop because I can't walk far and fear I will run out of time and my hip will lock up. I can't exercise because it hurts too much. I can get up and down the stairs much more easily if I have had a quiet day. I finding sitting or standing too long quite sore. Lying down is the worst so I am struggling to sleep well.

On the upside I can still walk, I don't limp until the early evening and if I reduce my activities down to very little it still hurts, but it is not unbearable like it can be. I am still alive and well and if I do very little I can get by. Maybe I could even live like this for quite a while.

What do I do? Shall I put off the surgery until I can no longer bear to walk at all (this is what I want to do, but don't want a disorderly operation as I need to be organised with the children) and then I will be glad to go. Or shall I just go in a few weeks and get it over with.

I acknowledge I am (very) fearful of this operation and it is clouding my judgement. 

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