Please tell me it gets better
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Hi
I'm male 35 and have battled with low mood and anxiety most of my life. I had a big breakdown just over 2 years ago and have not been the same since. I have tried to battle the depression and anhedonia on my own without medication until now, I got prescribed Fluoxetine just over 2 weeks ago I'm on day 16. My depression got so bad i started to consider suicide, I am also paying privately for therapy and I am signed off work sick. I am currently staying at my mothers house because i do not like to be alone
This being my third week on flux I am really struggling. I have no appetite, insomnia and no energy. I constantly have gloomy thoughts about the past and the future. Suicide often makes sense but I'm not going to act but I can't go on much longer.
The depression and anhedonia seems worse but I'm hoping i did the right thing by going on these tablets.
I have spoken to my doctor and as i expected they said you just need to wait, and gave me the number of the crisis team and samaritans
Any positive responses would be much appreciated right now
Thank you
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katecogs chris62872
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My son also had a melt down 2 years ago and was out into these meds and he went through hell - he'd also considered suicide. He was also in touch with the crisis team and hospital. It took him many months to recover and now he's back to his normal happy self again and enjoying life once more.
Its a tough road copying with depression and equally tough on these meds, but I can assure you it really does get better. You need to be very patient unfortunately as it can take months, and even when you feel your patience has run out, you just need to press on further.
If you feel it's all too much then please speak to someone and also post in here. You'll get lots of support on here.
These meds will help you. Honestly xx
Keep in touch.
K xx
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Today is the most depressed I've ever felt. It's feels as though I'll never ever 'want' to do anything ever again
I have a review 2 weeks. I hope i see some improvement by then I don't want to increase dose
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Throughout recovery you you will find it hard to see improvement, but that's how it often works. It doesn't mean you aren't improving, just that the meds are working in the background. It's all too easy to want to increase your meds when you don't see improvement, and it's often a mistake most people make as a larger dose doesn't bring recovery to you any quicker, and doesn't relieve the symptoms you have at the mo. These meds work very slowly and you should stick on one dose for many months before you can see if you need to increase. Increasing often gives you side effects again.
Please don't worry about all this, as you will feel better in time, but much time. Count progress in months, not weeks. That's how slow it works. I know we want to be well now - I remember the suffering - but you can't hurry these meds. Some people take 3-4 months to recover, some longer and some less time. Everyone's different. My son took 9 months. It really is worth the wait though.
Along the recovery route you'll begin to feel well and then find yourself back at the beginning. It's very common. Recovery comes in waves - so you'll be up and down along the way. Each time though it gets better and better.
What dose are you on? I recovered on 20mg. Some people suit 30mg or a little higher. Remember - don't rush to increase. Give each dose a long, long time to settle.
Remember this is an illness. Treat yourself gently for the time being whilst the meds get into your system. There really is light at the end of the tunnel, even if you can't see it yet.
You will get better.
K x
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I had to stop during therapy today as I was crying too much and couldn't think at all
I think i may have to have put therapy on hold for a while until I'm feeling a bit better
Though the thought of possibly having to wait months and months too improve is pretty terrifying right now
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Do you have anyone at home you can talk to?
You will get better xxx
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This is a good site - there's many people who are going through the same as you right now and there's many who've gone through it and are out the other side. Everyone will understand.
You will get back to yourself again. x