Poems and Thoughts
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Longing, wanting, constant yearning
Hating, loathing, frustration burning
Aching, hurting, forever crying
Suffering, cutting, inside dying
Fighting, trying, almost breaking
Holding, clinging, bodies aching
Twisting, Turning, mind controlling
Spinning breaking, sanity unfolding
Questioning, wanting, no understanding
Breaking, weakening, darkness approaching
Asking, begging, happiness awaiting
Hoping, wishing, forever praying
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Dondons3
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hearing nothing but the sound
Of these thoughts of mine
I think it's time
To admit that everything's not fine
It's not ok I'm not alright
I can't keep putting up this fight
Make it stop just make it leave
For I am finding it hard to breathe
suffocating so overwhelmed
When and how did I get so down
So low, so lonely, So sad
questioning my sanity
Am I mad?
This constant headache of thoughts in my mind
Is beginning to now slowly grind
Me down, I think I'm losing control
Please someone pull me out of this hole
Someone please just take my hand
This isn't supposed to happen
This wasn't what was planned
What is wrong with me why am I like this
Just to feel normal is my only wish
Dondons3
Posted
Just what it is I'm going through and how I hate being me
Jumping from one person to the next just hoping to find an ear
That'll listen to what's going on and how I live in fear
I shout from the rooftops but my voice just doesn't get heard
No one wants to listen to the things that I've incurred!
But I can't blame them as my own minds in a muddle
I just need someone to hold my hand or just to give me a cuddle
I don't mean to act like a child I really don't
but just because I'm an adult doesn't mean that I won't
Need someone to be there to tell me it's okay
To tell me that it's just a blip and these feelings will go away
But until I find that person I'll guess I just keep pushing through
I just wish someone would help me and tell me I matter too!
Dondons3
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Have no more understanding of what life's about
These damaging thoughts ruining my existence
Can't let go of my inhibitions
Seeking to find a reason searching to find the source
Of why it is I feel this way and why I have these thoughts
This horrible presence with me with every step I take
With me when I fall to sleep and everyday when I wake
Just Wanting to be rid of this sorrow
Yearning for a better tomorrow
Dondons3
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But when I looked a little closer I saw what I had done
"Look" she said "I'm mummy" as she lay on the bed and cry
"Look" he said "I'm daddy" as he waved them both goodbye
Is this what I've made them see is this what they think is the norm
My eyes fill with tears as I feel my heart being torn
I didn't realise that they had seen thought they were too young to understand
This wasn't what I wanted to happen this wasn't what id planned!
I didn't know they understood I didn't know that they had seen
I wished what I was watching was just some horrible dream
I took them into my arms and hugged them all so tight
I wish they hadn't seen their mummy and daddy fight!
I put them into bed, tuck them in and then
I make a silent promise to never let them see me cry again
So as I lay on my bed that night And the tears start to seep
I wipe them away as quick as they come, I will no longer be weak!!!
thurmanmurman Dondons3
Posted
You've been posting poems for three years, which means you've survived 3 years of depression. That's an amazing achievement. The fact that you are so prolific and creative, writing poetry when you feel bad, is quite admirable. If you dont get self-worth from anything then at least get it from that!