Poems and Thoughts
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Longing, wanting, constant yearning
Hating, loathing, frustration burning
Aching, hurting, forever crying
Suffering, cutting, inside dying
Fighting, trying, almost breaking
Holding, clinging, bodies aching
Twisting, Turning, mind controlling
Spinning breaking, sanity unfolding
Questioning, wanting, no understanding
Breaking, weakening, darkness approaching
Asking, begging, happiness awaiting
Hoping, wishing, forever praying
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Dondons3
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On the floor in a subconscious state, no one knows she exists, feels the worlds on her plate
Nobody knows that she's even there, no one to talk to and no one to care
Her frustration is overwhelming she feels the need to hurt, she hates herself, she's feeling like dirt
She's going crazy, she's losing her mind
Doesn't want to give up but feels that nows the time
She's laid in the corner alone and so cold
Nobody knows what happened, no one was told
She took her life and no one knew why, she tried to reach out but they didn't hear her cry
So she kept things to herself, didn't want to be a burden, Didn't want them to delve
Into her life for they wouldn't understand, what she was going through, why she was sad
She stayed withdrawn from the people that cared, didn't realise that of course they'd have been there
But now it's too late she's taken her life, leaving her friends and family with the strife
That troubled girl just needed some release
And now all that can be said is
'Rest in peace'
Dondons3
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If people only listened, if people only knew,
But no one understands the things that I go through
I wish I could run, I wish I could flee, but no matter where I run i'd still be me!
I'm my own worst enemy, a victim of my own mind,
How can I have a better future if the past I can't leave behind.
Dondons3
Posted
So I'll just reach for that familiar bottle, drown my sorrows and then..in the morning when I wake, probably do it all over again
Cos I see no other way, seems it's the only thing to work, to take away the sadness and the hurt
I just want to know will it ever be different and if so then when?
But until I get that answer I'll just get drunk again
It's not the right thing to do, don't get me wrong, I know
But I'll try anything to make this feeling go!
Dondons3
Posted
Everyone wants happiness, it's what we all try to find,
for a little bit of joy and a That little piece of mind
The road may be long, there may be obstacles to push through,
but once we reach our destination it'll be an amazing view
So be your own counsellor, take your own advice,
guide yourself to happiness for we don't get to live twice!
Dondons3
Posted
Feeling sad, down and useless too
Life is so hard, wish I knew how to deal
With the hassle, the stress and the pain that I feel
Tired, broken, feel I've nothing left to give
Times are so hard in this life that I live
No one understands what goes on in my head
So I keep my problems to myself instead
Wake in the morning and dread the day
Wish I could sleep, wish I bed I could stay
Tears keep on falling, scared they won't end
Till I make big changes and my life I can mend
But it's not easy, believe me I've tried
Seems lately all I can do is hide
From all the struggles that I go through,
It's not the best way but it's all I can do
Tried to help myself but it's just too tough
There's nothing more I can do
Should I just give up?
Dondons3
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I hide my hurt so that no one can see
But I can't hide the tears running down my cheek
My eyes are filled with the pain I'm feeling
Before I know it the tears are streaming
From my eyes and it's no surprise
With what I have to deal with, what I've had to suffice
I sit and think of a way out of this place
As the teardrops still fall down my face
I hate being like this, hate what I feel
This pain that I go through is far too real
My body is aching, I feel so weak
The tears fall so hard they start to seep
Into my pillow, it's soaked with the hurt
This pain that I'm feeling is just the worst
I'm hurting so much, my future looks bleak
And these tears are still dripping down my cheek
Dondons3
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I look in the mirror and try to see
But I don't know the person looking back at me
Who is this girl? I am unsure
She doesn't look the same as she did before
Why is she different? I think for a while
Her eyes full of emptiness, she has no smile
I try to think and I try to see
Why the reflection is there but it's not me
I look once more, I stand and stare
But the girl who once was is no longer there
So I smash that mirror and I break that glass
So I don't have to look and these feelings may pass
Who was that girl? Who did I see?
Who was that looking back at me?
Dondons3
Posted
But you pushed and pushed me, you forced my hand
I didn't want this but was left with no choice
You just wouldn't listen you didn't hear my voice
I loved you so much that you will never know
But you made things so tough for me and so I had to go
Now I'm so far away I could never come home
So I'm just trying to adjust to a life on my own
But you won't let me do that, you're making it so tough
Now I'm starting to hate you, now I've had enough
I wish you would leave me alone, why can't you let me be?
I'm not doing anything wrong
I'm just trying to be happy!
Dondons3
Posted
And they're so surreal
They'd gone for a little while
And I'd started to feel
Normal again, even happy at times
But now that's gone again
And now I Just find
Myself crying again, the thing I most hate
Not being in control or able to concentrate
I almost wish that I'd always be like this
Then the happy times at least I wont miss!
Dondons3
Posted
If you ever find yourself lost in the darkness and you can't see
Don't think of what has happened and think of what could be
If you ever find yourself on the edge and you think you'll drop
Just Hold on tight with everything you've got
If you ever find yourself drowning in the sea
Don't give up, swim, keep kicking those feet
If you ever find yourself right on the brink
Don't ever give up for you're stronger than you think!
Dondons3
Posted
Wondering when it all went wrong
I can't stop from crying as I'm writing this song
I'm falling and falling just can't seem to stop
Need someone to help me but there's no one I've got
I lay my head down in this now dark room
Trying to forget, not let it consume
I'm tossing and turning, just can't fall to sleep
The longer I'm like this, the more I feel weak
The more that I'm crying, the more my heart breaks
When it's all gone I'm just left with this ache
But I just can't surrender, I just can't give in
But if my only battle is with myself
Then how can I win?
Dondons3
Posted
When they are just sad or having a bad day
Used to think it was just a lie but now Ive seen it with my own eyes
Thought it was nothing but a myth
But now I know it truly exists
The hurt, the pain always at your side
Making you feel scared and wanting to hide
Losing sense of all self worth
Crying so hard that it physically hurts
Struggling to get through each day
Waking in the morning and wishing it away
now I know that it's so very real
The pain we all go through and how we all feel
Dondons3
Posted
Life is full of feelings we don't always understand
We deal with our lives depending which hand
We're dealt with In life, we can only try our best
Even though it puts every emotion we have to the test
But we keep on trying, we keep on pushing through
It's just how it is, it's what we have to do!
Dondons3
Posted
It's not the best combination
But here's some inspiration...
Don't give in to the first temptation
You could end up with all sorts of complications
Free your mind of all expectations
As you may not like the revelations
Don't let people fool you with manipulations
Trust your instincts, forget all hesitations
Don't have any reservations
You are who you are with no duplications
This won't stay with you for the duration
So just be patient
Don't have any resignations
Seek within to find some motivation
Then make your own arrangements
To reach your destination
And eventually your'll find oneself complacent!
Dondons3
Posted
Even though my life seems so bad
I'll never show you that white flag
I may be suffering, I may be weak
But I'll always get back on my feet
You've put me through H.E.L.L
But I'm still fighting, still here somehow
I won't give up I won't give in
You haven't beat me as I am still living
So you should just leave, I'll show the door
For I won't let you scare me anymore!