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Hi all.. I joined this group needing some advice from someone who may have been in a similar situation the what I am currentky in. I am not an alcoholic in the sense that I do not drink every day. Sometimes I can have diner and 2 wines and be fine, however sometimes when I go out with friends I drink to excess and I get to a point of no return. I change into a completely different person.. my drunk self is a totally different person to my sober self. Most times when I have big drinking sessions,I wake up the next day having had back outs and not remembering the night, and I have an overwhelming feeling of guilt and feel extremely anxious. I am cuurrently trying to cut down, and on many occassions I have stuck to my word, however some times I haven't been able to and I just leave a trail of self disruction through the self-loathing. I have done some pretty terrible things when drunk and have caused injuries to myself, and am starting to really have psychological repercussions but worse of all I have hurt some people in my life that mean a lot to me! My question is, do I just bite the bullet and quit altogether, or do I have one or 2 every now and then.. It's just a whole mental thing knowing I can drink. I'm usually fine for ages, then I have a night out and I don't know why I bothered touching alcohol in the first time.
I'm really looking for some insight from someone who has been through this, or if someone is going through this now too feel free to comment.
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