really depresseed

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iam really depressed that my head is all over the place and my brain can't stop thinking,I've just lost my job for gross misconduct for a stupid mistake,the beginning of the year I lost my partner,left with four children to look after,my work took my mind a little from thinking about it,then a few months down watched my mum battle cancer,got suspended while work investigated,lost mum and now my job,so many mitigating circumstances to why ilost my job,it was out of character but employer just ignored it,don't even want to open my eyes in the morning,can't rememberr the last time I smiled,life dont mean much to me,keep bursting into tears so many times out of the blue,cant remember the last time i had a good night sleep without my brain working none stop or if it not thinking I'm having these nightmares,Ive had enough

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    Hello I'm in a similar situation I lost my job yesterday for misconduct because my apathy with depression caused me to not do my job and I also have 4 kids I feel totally depressed like I can't move. It's like someone scooped out my insides and I can't breathe or eat. I'm so embarrassed and sad for letting my kids down. I've ruined my life, we had it good but now I don't know what we'll do and I can't imagine feeling this way for another hour let alone days.

    Reading your post made me feel less alone not that I want other people to feel bad but it helps me to think I'm not just a freak who can't keep a job or take care of my life.

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      Abby,I lost my job yesterday too but I was suspended since October which made me feel worse as i was stressing and thinking way too much about the outcome and about everthing else that happened to me,my mum then passed away two months back which devestated me so much,I wrote a letter to my employer to make him see and understand what I was going through but he bat an eye lid with no compasion at all,just about he was about to dismis me I resigned and told him hartless piece of crap and where to go,at least a little of that worrying,thinking about what's going to be the outcome at work not there but I'm sure Abs as long as we are still breathing and alive we and all the others on here can climb out of this dark hole that we are in at the moment,I'm so glad about all these beautiful kind hearted people on here as this is the first time I've spoken and shared what I've been feeling,perhaps oneday we could all meet face to face and thank each other,as they say "a problem shared is a problem halved.x
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      I'm crying thank you so much for sharing your story. I wanted to resign but was so blindsided and caught off guard and muddled I couldn't even think straight. I want to write a follow up letter explaining my mental health because I hadn't disclosed anything about depression. I am so embarrassed. I love the idea of someday meeting everyone who helps lift me up. My husband tries he's amazing but he's not depressed so some things just don't make sense to him. I am so relieved I found this forum.
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      everything that you are saying iam relating to,I joined yesterday and didnt think or expect any comments but when they came through and i started reading them the same thing happenned to me as if you read the replies I done yesterday you'll see,I was filled with emotions and tears reading them,but it seams to be happenning a lot to me recently,we'll be there for each other sweety.
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      sorry about my first reply, i should have gone over it 4 spelling errors before i sent it
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      another thing sometimes a person needs a hug from their partner and to be told that things will be alright,have you spoken to him to let him know what you are feeling and going through?
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      Hi Abby i totally get where you are coming from.  I was in the same situation in my last job.  I was suffering from depression and stress all at the same time and the job was making it a lot worse.  I couldn't think straight either.  I did tell my employers but their attitude made it a lot worse and I was left thinking that I wish I hadn't told them at all. 

      You will feel better in time as this is your depression telling you you won't.  You can't trust depression thoughts so rely on those who love you to steer you right.  x

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      Reemus you have been and are going through so much.  This would have broken most people so it shows how strong you are.   I know it's an old clique but time really is a big healer.   Give yourself that time and concentrate on your family in the meantime.   Take care and remember we are always here for you.  A big hug  Bev xx

       

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      Bev,thanks,can't remember, it seems like a long time that I had a hug and told that things will be alright,how I wish for that.x
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      Well in that case I am sending more hugs.  Big fat warm cuddly ones.  Hundreds of them.  None the less real for being cyber smile  Bev xx
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      (((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((reemus))))))))))))))))))))) xx

       

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      thank you sweetheart,this is the first since I can remember that I've actually smiled from the outside and inside,once again thank you so much for taking time out for me.x
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      I don't care about spelling! Thank you for your message. My husband has been waaaaaay better than I thought he'd be. He gave lots of hugs and support. I hope he can stick with me through this.
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      I'm sure he'll stick with you,eveyrone that has left a comment for you have faith in you and you'll come out of this,just give it time plus you've got all of us looking out for each other cuz I thought about this yesterday that everone that has left a comment actually took time out to reply which they didnt have to reply showing that they really care
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      Good.  You are very welcome love.  I tell you what if all this had happened to me I would be curled up in a ball somewhere in the corner of my room unable to move or breathe.  You are full of courage and strength and I salute you. 

      I weep when I hear some of the awful things that happen to good people, and I wept when I heard your story.  ((((((((((((((((reemus)))))))))))))))) xx

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