Rough day

I've been crying for a couple of hours and can't stop.  Last week, I figured out that I'm not going to make real progress with improving my health unless I get help with my anxiety.  Over the weekend, I talked about it in a forum here under Anxiety Disorders that is really super helpful and also talked with my sister about it.  Tomorrow morning, I have the colonoscopy that had to postpone due to my surgery recovery after having the ovary and polyps out in April, so going through the prep for that today.  Understanding now that with anxiety, Crohn's, and peri, I may be able to make better choices for managing the Crohn's and peri if getting help with anxiety becomes first priority.  Last two colonoscopies were a bit rough - had benign polyp removed in 2013, then had bad car accident, then had to have follow-up colonoscopy in 2014 because of previous polyp and was a nervous wreck - cried when GI doc came in to do procedure - but no polyps that time.  Wouldn't have guessed I'd be going into it this time less than 3 months after gyn surgery.  I know the tears are the anxiety talking, and know I have to learn to cope and manage.  Just realizing so much at once, it's really hard today.

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