Scan day
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Hey ladies
Had scan today - the young lady was very kind. I can contact the doctors next week for results.
Walked out and just burst into tears. The waiting room was busy so I gave them something to laugh about. Had an embarrassing moment at a friends last night. I had braved it out - (took me 10 minutes to knock on the door.
Then I totally flooded my underwear and jeans with an untimely period?!!
I left the hospital and just wanted to go back to bed. Husband wanted to go for breakfast!! He reminded me he kindly picked me up this morning and it would be nice to do. I agree with this but not with how I was feeling.
I try and explain but I'm not doing a very good job of it lol. In the restaurant again I was the entertainment for others- Not through choice. I got very upset - I could not stop the tears - hubby frustrated with me ( rather loudly) what have you got to cry about??
I wanted the ground to open up and swallow me.
I wanted to hide under the table. ( I do have a bulging disc - to add to the pile) which has not helped.
Finally got home and just wanted to go to bed.
It was only midday.
Totally drained and feeling so low the panic and dread of work tomorrow started to make my head and heart pound. The awful thoughts drenched my mind - breathing got harder- thoughts of not being good enough at work tomorrow ( on a phased return to work due to disc).so I feel like I'm being tested -- paranoia or what!!!!
This has to stop? I laid my head on the pillow.
The next I knew it was two hours later.
Felt a bit wobbly but much better than earlier.
Hubby bought up a cup of tea saying - this is not meant to make you cry but it's OK if you do I'm trying to understand!!
We locked eyes and for that split second we smiled.- then I cried!!!!!
What a roller-coaster of a day.
Managed a walk before the rain.
Had tea as a family and yes more tears.
Ok if I'm going to do lots of crying that's the way it is. I will have to stop what people are thinking or that I have ruined their day as that makes me feel worse and I wonder if people are worried about me when they see me in tears - I doubt it.
Let's see what Monday brings x
Hope it made you smile ladies and please do laugh I know your laughing with me.
Big hugs all.
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sazzie42
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maisie05 sazzie42
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Spare panties in your handbag from now on! 😘
sazzie42 maisie05
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Thank you for your kind words x 😊
michelle50768 sazzie42
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sazzie42 michelle50768
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jamie50513 sazzie42
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elizabeth2244 sazzie42
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I understand what you are going through. I have been working a lot myself with problem.Â
I have a heal spur on my right foot and my left foot has inflamation in it on the ball of the foot. I also have carpel tunnel in my hands and yesterday was the worst for me. Both my hands were going numb badly. I went to work yesterday and at work i got a little dizzy and shaky and weak like my sugar went down so i asked my manager for a ginger ale and i went to sit down for a while then i went back to my work duties and finished my shift.Â
Today i called in sick for the first time but i do not want to make a habbit of this. All day my hands have been going numb off and on today.Â
All i did was sleep with how tired a draged out i am.Â
I am also in menopause and i have been cramping all all week feeling like i am going to have a period because i have symptoms of leakage and bathroom problems and that always occurs before i do have a periodÂ
So i understand how you feel about just crying it out because i just come home from work and i am in pain all i do is cry it out to make me feel betterÂ
Elizabeth
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elizabeth2244 sazzie42
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I pray that you have a better weekÂ
Elizabeth
Guest sazzie42
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And don't think peoplr are laughing at you....mist people would want to help you not laugh.
You aren't alone. X
michellemybell sazzie42
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Us women do.go.through it.
I keep crying lately
looloo43 sazzie42
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sazzie42 looloo43
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Yes it was for a transvaginal scan. I am 44 and it all started about 6 months ago. I thought at first it was trauma dealing with a prolapsed disc and not getting help from any doctor or hospital with that. And then I kept bleeding for weeks and would jot stop crying then the panic set in and I was too afraid to go out or see any one. I totally cut myself off. I still have my uterus. I ended up in a n e and a lady doctor suggested that I asked gp to order certain tests.
I went to work today but felt totally overwhelmed. I'm on a phased return due to back but I feel so scared when I return to full hours x cheers for text. If you can think of anything that may help please let me know.
Sazzie42 x
looloo43 sazzie42
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