Scared
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I'm so anxious about work tomorrow I really don't want to go, I didnt go today as I was just not well at all but if I don't go tomorrow I fear I'll lose my job, my doctors and counsellor have said I could/should Sign on the sick due to my depression, anxiety and Asthma but I don't really want to, I want a bit of normality in my life, want to feel I'm worth something! Also being a single mum of 5 which don't get me wrong I love all my babies to bits but sometimes I want to be Donna and not just mummy, hope that makes sense?
It's just getting harder and harder lately to go to work and it's making me ill worrying about it, don't really know why I'm writing this guess maybe hoping someone can relate?
I don't want to come across like I'm just work shy cos I'm not it's really not that, I don't know? I just get so scared x
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tara60066 Dondons3
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Hope this helps.... Keep in touch
amberstar33 Dondons3
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What do you do for work? Do you enjoy it? Have you got some annual leave you could take to have a bit of a break? Personally I have found being at work a godsend! It gets me out of bed and keeps me going.
jean91171 Dondons3
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WTF hun, give yourself a break for a change. (pardon me), you have every right to feel scared. You have a lot to cope with and in my world, you rock cos you keep going. That takes courage and you have it in spades. Rock on!!!
Dondons3 jean91171
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Like they say I should just man up and carry on but it's just not always that easy for me and I hate that it's not, a simple thing as to cleaning is so hard for me to do...it's almost pathetic! xx
jean91171 Dondons3
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Dondons3
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Ok the doctors have advised me not to but I need it just not sure I can carry it on anymore but at the same time I don't want to feel a failure I mean it's just cleaning so if I can't do that then what can I do? I love my babies all the world but I need something that gets me out the house, like I said I don't want to be just mummy, I know That sounds bad and I don't mean it to it's just sometimes I actually forget that I actually have a name you know? You probably don't I'm probably talking in riddles, sorry xxx
amberstar33 Dondons3
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I think you sound like an amazing person and an excellent mum.
Dondons3 amberstar33
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amberstar33 Dondons3
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For my job I cover quite a large area so lots of driving, going to different offices, attending meetings and visiting people in their own homes. I can handle it as it work. As soon as the weekend comes I just want to hide away in bed as I have to choice what to do, there is no plan. I know I could make a plan for my weekends but I just struggle so much to motivate myself.
I think you should have a think about where you are at the moment and if you think you can cope with the feelings you are experiencing towards work.
Maybe you could look at doing some voluntary work in an environment that you feel ok in and build your confidence from there? I'm not sure what area you live in or what services you already access.
Dondons3 amberstar33
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It wouldn't matter what job it was I wouldn't or don't think I'd feel comfortable, it's not that I hate my job sometimes when I'm on my own I can carry on and do what I need to do but a lot of the time I have to talk to people, and have them around me which I just can't handle, I know I Sound like a child and I often think that way about myself, sorry I'm so rubbish at getting my point across cxx
jean91171 Dondons3
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Weak -Failure - you? Are you serious? 5 dependant kids, beatings, seperation/divorce trauma, health issues. You still have PTDS I bet.
You are an amazing woman. Look how many people are responding to you, and rightly so. This episode will pass in time, give youself time to recover and stop blaming yourself.
Aspinan Dondons3
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luckily I still get paid and have fantastic employers who are supportive.
i agree with Tara that you should take Drs advise.
I still do my volunteering work as I can either do or don't doer ding on how I'm feeling.
Listen to what your body is telling you also. N
Dondons3 Aspinan
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I just can't sign off or have a break because I'm worried the break will end up being indefinite Xx
celtics Dondons3
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To tomorrow ! Its a shame that you think you come across as work shy but sorry being a mum is almost a full time job in its self ! If i was.you i would take your doctor and counsoullers advice and take a break and get your self to a stage were you can think about going back take care david
Dondons3 celtics
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