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I am a 16 year old male and for the past month I've been experiencing very odd, worrying mental feelings. When I wake up in the morning I have a pounding heart and I feel like I am going crazy, that I'll never be happy or normal again and that nothing I will do will make me happy like it used to, and this brings me to tears because my mind just races. When I get out of bed and move this feeling usually goes away, but I have a residual strange feeling for the rest of the day. It feels as though my mind is foggy, like I can't look forward to things, like I can't recollect past memories or feelings I had, and this makes me feel depressed like I'll never feel simple and happy again. I try to look forward to things that I can do but I always worry that I won't feel the same when I'm doing it. That's another major part, things and people around me, when I stop and think about it, feel different. Almost like I can't feel their company and life. Same goes for places, I feel as though they're just not the same, lacking something that I don't know. Sometimes I'll be doing something and then all of a sudden I'll have this weird realization of confusion, like "it doesn't feel like I just did that" or it feels like a lot of time passed when it was only a short time. I then get very worried that I am losing my mind and that I will be this dull way for the rest of my life. Everyday I look back to the previous day and I feel like everything was even different then, and now things feel unfamiliar and less comforting. At night when I am tired I usually feel almost normal, which leads me to believe it's just anxiety. But I get very worried about developing a permanent derealization disorder or something because I feel so strange and different. If anybody understands what I am talking about can you please inform me of what can cause this, or if it is normal? it makes me very worried. I feel lost and scared
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