Seriously depressed about anal fissure

Thanks Laura I'm not constipated and I'm vegan so I naturally have decently soft stools it's just one time I was straining on the toilet because I had stitches in from a previous tag removal and it split me did you get Botox ? Ointments didn't work for me and I had to have the Botox surgery with a removal of an internal polyp this is so miserable I can't deal

Im so sorry for the pain you are in,fissures are a life altering experience.I had suffered for about 6months,I blame the gp I first went to,she prescribed me hemmie cream.I hadnt suffered from fissures before and kept applying the cream,bt the pain kept getting worst.I remember crying in pain,sweating and panic before bm.I finally,saw an colorectal surgeon,he was very frank and said if your fissure doesnt heal in 2months,it never will.The spasms,the tags make bms impossible,no matter hw good a diet you stick to,your poophole has been traumatized and shuts tight in fear.pucker factor.I immediately scheduled lis surgery,best decision of my life.I was lucky,healing wasnt painful and now I poo like a pro...

Thankyou for your reply! Yes it sucks I'm a lot better after the Botox but I'm mentally in panic mode and I really do hope this Botox works it's still sharp passing a stool and sore and tender after but alot better then before / could you tell me more about your surgery experience as this is what I need to mentally prepare for if this does t work (fingers crossed tho)

Glad to hear you have a positive outcome

Well,I gues everyones body is diff and the skill of the surgeon.I was luckky my surgeon was confident about the procedure as I have noticed some discourage it from lack of skill.He deduced with my age,being young of good health my body should respond well n it did.He made a very small incision to my external part inorder to reach the internal sphincter,used the opening to cut the muscle a bit which loosens all that pressure and tightness that cause the fissure not heal.I had 3tags as well which he removed.I was under General anaesthesia for about an hour.I dreaded my first bm,it didnt come on that first day of surgery,and when it finally did it was so easy I felt no pain at all bt jst a bit of burning I guess from the raw wound of fissurectomy.I went home after one days stay at the hospital,was given a sitz and epsom salts which I did abt 3times a day for a week.it has been a month now,and you cant believe how much I appreciate my condition down there,I evacuate easy and wholly.I hope your body is able to heal with botox,but just incase be on the look out for a good colorectal surgeon

Thank you so much for the info and positivity about your experience! Did the original fissure heal and your excision ? Do you ever get any sort of pain now

No pain at all!I dont hv to take stool softeners or laxatives,im still careful abt what I eat,stayn away from things that would get me banged up.I used to be so scared seeing a toiletbowl full of bright red blood,came along way.

Hi April,

What surgery did you end up having? I've read so many horror stories about the internal lateral sphincterectomy. At once, I felt relieved that there was a surgical option, but now am discouraged with all the negative things I've read.

Hi April,

Can you tell me what things I can ask or look for in a good colorectal surgeon? How is your condition Now? Do you need any help (stool softeners, fiber supplements, etc?)

Hey Angel,a surgeon who is confident in the procedure and who advocates for it.The first thing my surgeon said to me is that after a fissure becomes chronic,non of the conservative measure would heal it.He explained step by step,how a tiny incision is made to access the tense muscle,cuts it partially to relieve and promote healing.

I hated the stool softeners as the left a sick feeling in my mouth,and I stopped using them in a couple of days,I just watched what I ate and listened to my body.My anus had become quite lose compared to the struggle of passing stool id had before the procedure.I did sitz baths with epsom salts for almost 2weeks,

Hi April

How do u know if a fissure is chronic

I'm seeing my surgeon tomorrow il ask him but will b good to hear how your surgeon described it to u

It's so refreshing to hear a positive outcome for someone who has had the surgery. I've read SO MANY horror stories. Just want to keep my options opened. Thanks for sharing😊😊

Thank you so much Tra for telling me your experience if you don't mind me asking can you see if your fissure has healed? And what was it like when the Botox wore off because that's what I'm most scared of

I don't feel spasms just a weird feeling now. I haven't returned to the dr because I wasn't impressed at all w/her bedside manner. But i as well just want my life back. I also only use unscented wipes after a BM. One thing I can say is it's nothing compared to the fiscar pain.

Sorry to hear your still in discomfort hopefully you and I both heal soon that's like me I feel just some sharp pain in toilet then afterwards it's discomfort like a sting up my butt I can't believe the lack of awareness fissures have I swear I never heard about them till it happened to me

I agree 100%. Why don't we hear about this?? I've been suffering for 3 months, and honestly don't know what I'm going to do. Aside from the pain, panic, and agony, this condition takes such a toll emotionally and mentally. I am just lost.

I know exactly how you feel this fuking sucks and the lack of eduction for this sort of trauma is ridiculous this is more common then hemoroids but no ones ever heard of a fissure what a joke! I'm not in pain anymore but I'm still bleeding and have a sscratch feeling going bathroom

What a joke this has ruined my life

Riri, can I ask how long yours lasted?

Since the end of march the pain I have now is NOTHING like it was it's only passing the stool it's like a scratch feeling and bit is blood but after I'm done within couple mins there's no pain at all

It's just so fustrating I'm like full of anxiety to even eat because I just think how it's gona come out and I'm scared to push at all

Urgh

Wbu ?

I totally understand what you're saying. Mine started one day in March. Never knew I'd still be dealing with this. So drained from this. Feel like my life revolves around this. I wish there was more help with this. I am discouraged by all the bad things I have read about the surgery. And I totally know what u mean about the anxiety. I feel like if I eat one wrong thing, I panic or fear more pain. Yet, I've never eaten this healthy in my life.

Took every word right out of my mouth has you're slightly improved ? My Botox has helped but looking st the fissure it's not getting any better then the stage it's at

Even if I have surgery the actual fissure needs to heal

Why the eff won't it heal the outside part of the tear has healed but when I open my butt hole apart the fissure that's like in the centre crease that goes inside is still raw I'm seeing my surgeon tomorrow but I know his just gona say it's normal and to be patient as these take time to heal I can't enjoy life my life hasn't changed this is so bad

I am so sorry and I feel for u!!! I cannot for the life of me figure out why we don't have better options. Ppl suffer with this, and we just have to deal with it. I've been so desperate, I've looked up if ppl get colostomy bags, temporarily, to let their fissure heal. That's how desperate I have become. I have an appt next week to see if there are options. Mine is so-so today, but that can always change. I still feel a whole bunch of stuff going on back there. So depressed over this.

I did the same I even start researching if it's ok to forever live off a juice diet or if there's a way to cause permanent numbness I just don't want this ever again n I hope it gets better soon gave u tried Botox yet ?

I haven't tried Botox. The surgeon only spoke on the surgery, but I don't know how comfortable I would be with a General surgeon doing it. I'm looking into a colorectal surgeon, but am limited in oprions with my insurance.