Side effects

iv been on flu for nearly 5 weeks now and at 2 weeks i was feeling exactly the same as you are, i thought the side effects were going to kill me as i had never had heart palpitations before and thought i was having a heart attack.

as for the waking up screaming i freaked myself out by waking myself up by sleeptalking which i have never done before.

the side effects will pass in time but if they really start to worry you go back and see your doctor they will be able to either reassure you that it is normal or they can prescribe you something else

Thnx a lot for the reassurance...i thought that i was one of the unlucky one who will never get their problem sorted =( At least now i know that i am not the only one experiencing these side effects....are you feeling better now? or are the side effects continuous?

Take care

feeling loads better im not fixed but im getting there and everyone keeps saying i seem a lot more chilled out 8) so thats good.

i still have bad days but im having more frequent good days :D now.

anyway like i said before if you think you cant cope with the side effects or you feel ike you are getting worse then don hesitate to go see your doctor but if you need to chat or just rant and rave and let off steam then we are here for you im on here nearly everyday because knowing that i am possibly helping someone else is really helping me to overcome my low self esteem issues (which is possibly the root of some of my problems) and also knowing im not alone iv found helps as well

take care ellie

Thank you soo much Miss Azziz, i actually feel better and i know i am not the only one...Im feeling quite miserable these days and worst than i did before..i am not able to descibe how i feel and feel extremely fustrated! It's like no one understand what i am going through plus i havent told anyone at home so they think i am having a tough time at work...the only reason i havent told them is because i dont want them to feel guilty and responsible for the way i feel..which i still havent come to terms with myself.

The only people that know about the severity of my condition are my friends, all of them have cried when i told them and now i feel bad about opening up and making them go through my pain. I have a tendency of always putting a mask on, people see me as a strong, bubbly and happy person. People always come to me when they have problems and thats why i am forced to take these tablets but i am not responding well to them...i will definately go and see the doctor

Hope your ok and well done for sticking to the tablets with all those side effects..i know how hard it must have been but your staying strong...thanks again for your support

Take care

Sorry it's miss Azzi... :oops:

im 25 and still live at home but i havent told my mum or stepdad because i really cant be doing with all the blubbering from my mum, she will think its all her fault and that its because its her bad genes (depression runs in the family on her side) but iv come to the conclusion that i have issues and while i have them i wont be helping anyone with thier issues. i know its a selfish way to act but the priority is your health not loading yourself up with everybody elses problems so if its a trusted friend just tell them what you're going through and hopefully they will understand that you're not in the best position to help them

i know it can sound harsh but its the way im feeling today im having a major pot noodle syndrome (its all me me me me me) day lol

as for not knowing how to describe how your feeling i had exactly the same problem you should have heard me trying to explain it to my boss i could hear myself and knew that what i was saying wasnt making much sense and i kept rambling on about time supposed to be linear but its keeps getting jumbled (told you it didnt make much sense) but the best way i found to describe how i was struggling was just to say \"its like running uphill with gale force winds against you, you're trying as hard as you can but dont seem to be getting anywhere\"

also i was just looking at your original message and just had to say that im also getting bruised easily the bruises arent unexplained but it only takes the slightest knock to cause them, i am going to see doctor about it but i was looking at the instructions for the tablets and although im not a medical professional it just seemed to make sense because you aren't allowed to take blood thinners or asperin with them so i think that may be because it does act as a mild blood thinner itself and therefore makes it easier for blood to come to the surface in the form of a bruise

but still go and see doc if its worrying you and even if they do put you on something else you can still com to this forum and talk if you need to

Hi! ..i have the similar age too...a few years younger...I know exactly what you mean about parents, i dont want to tell them for the same reason as you..plus i dont think that they will even understand! It's quite hard though, to keep away from your parents especially with all those side effects...im barely managing it! I just keep on blaming it on prolonged stress...which partially caused my depression.

I totally agree when you say that you should look after yourself more...i havent been doing that all these years and now i am paying the price...My friends understand how much i am going through, but it is my norm to just put a face on and act like everything's fine...it lets me 'run away' from my problems and not face them for that moment... i dont even know if i make sense!

Thank you again, talking to you actually makes me feel better and i am not saying that out of courtesy...

take care

hi ellie

sorry i didnt reply last night i did read it but id had a bit to drink so didnt think it was wise to write anything (alcohol and flu not a good combo, get drunk waaay too fast)

anyway even if you dont make sense, that in itself should tell people how much you are struggling.

Hi Miss Azzi..sorry havent been able to reply before...i havent been feeling well in the past few days...couldnt get out of bed for two days and felt extremely down..but i am better now..i think! How are you feeling now? Hope things are not too hard for you and try to stay off the booze as i heard they dont get along as you may have experienced..

I saw on one of the other messages that your mum has found out about taking flu...mind you they have to know one day and like what one of the other people said, you should sit down and talk it through, she might feel better about knowing how you feel...the more open you are the less of a problem it becomes i guess

Do you go to a therapist too...i do, and trust me i have found the root of my problems without knowing it existed all these years. The tablets have started to show the good side which gives me hope and now i have the strength to face the problems i need to make sure i sort them out....but it seems to be on and off..i guess thats the case until i reach 6 week...

take care Miss Azzi x

it was awkward and she thinks its all her fault not because of the way she raised me but because her biological parents had problems, she has had a few emotional problems in the past and my sister had a lot of problems similar to mine but unfortunately she didnt come out the other side and killed herself. it was 6 years ago but mum still gets upset about it which is why i didnt want to burden her about this.

i dont see a therapist or councillor becuase im just no god at talking to people face to face or on the phone. i wish there was an online thrapist i could talk to.

im terrified at the moment because iv gone back to my old ways of self doubt and self sabotage, there is a guy hat is interested in me but iv been making excuses to myself to not do anything even though i do kind of like him. i even told him im a nutcase on prozac. it didnt seem to phase him.

my major worry at the moment is the fact that iv been thinking a lot about self harming and how good and alive it used to make me feel. i would hope i would never go back down that road though

I know what you mean the truth can be more complicated than it seems...but make her understand that although you feel similar to your sister you are trying to fight it and are doing something about it, just remember that taking prozac doesnt make you a nutcase, it just gives you a bit of strength to continue and sort your problems out...you would be surprised by the number of people who take prozac and act like they dont! Just think of it as a vitamine supplement that you take everyday, thats what i do and it does make me feel better.

Tell your mum that feeling bad about the genetical side of depression is not going to improve anything or make it any better..it will only make both you and her feel worst. The only solution is to continue because life has to go on...i am sorry about what happened to your sister, and it must be harder for your family especially for your mum as she now thinks its her fault...reassure her that the same thing wont happen to you..because you help others like me ...

I have had problems with self harming too but that was because i wasnt able to descie the way i felt and was feeling angry with myself, plus it made me feel good for a fraction of a second but it didnt resolve anything...its a bit like drinking, you feel god for that moment but it does more damage than good...try not to think about it and distract your mind by doing somthing else..i knw what you might be thinking..its easy for her to say but hard to do! Dont worry i understand but try your best and if ever you feel lik doing stupid make sure you go around people who care or the hospital...

take care x

thanks ellie for listening i wasnt sure if i should mention my sister or not on this site because i think people dont want to hear about the people that didnt come out the other side. but iv been told by my doctor that part of my depression is becaus i havent dealt with what happened to her properly and its true because i completely avoided the situation, i only took 1 day off work and that was for the funeral and even then i waited in the car becuse i didnt want to go into the crematorium. i sound like a nutcase when i say it but i do still talk to her in a way becuse i cant go to her memorial site its too far away but i have a friend who was killed in a car crash a few years ago and i often go to his grave and ask him to pass messages on to her.

on a more positive note i have a sort of date on thursday although im not sure if i really like him or if im just interested because he has shown an interest in me.

Your doc is right..although it is tough you need to face the facts adn problems...mind you, you will become a stronger person on the other side And with regards to talking to your sister, it is not crazy...people often do that when they are really close to the person...one of my mates talks to his mother who had passed away a few years ago, so it's ok to do it...

Mentioning your sister on this site shouldnt be a problem because not everyone that has depression go on to killing themselves...like you said before a lot of people end up leading a normal life. I think what makes the condition worst is the fact that the society links depression with madness which i disagree with completely! And thats mainly because you only hear about the cases in which people lose the battle and the ones who have won stay quite in the fear of being labelled depressed...anyways, thats a different issue

and dont worry, i am always here to listen to you...as long as it makes someone feel better :D

im so happy for you!! Good luck on thursday...is it the same guy you were talking about the other day?

yep its the same guy i was talking about the other day. iv had a really good day today probably because of him, iv been like a giddy teenager all day. i was feeling fantastic untill my stepbrother started like im not allowed to be happy but thats a story that should probably be saved for jeremy kyle or trisha lol.

anyway enough about me how are you holding up??? sorry iv been just talking about me all this time

Azzi x

im glad to hear that everything is working out...

i am still holding on tight...i mean i had another panic attack yesterday..its like i am not capable of taking too much stress...like i've reached the optimum point! No matter how much i try to make myself feel better and think positive there's always something that makes me go back down..it's hard but i need to keep on fighting at least for the sake of the people around me...yesterday, i wanted to do something stupid but now i have been open about my feelings i feel like i cant anymore as people will be judging me as 'weak'. I am just so confused about everything...one minute i seem to be fine and the next i get down by few things..i never used to be like this..i just presumed that everything was fine and kept on gettin on with my life! Now that i am trying to find out whats wrong and change myself it becomes all more difficult!! By my GP keeps on telling me that i need to face the problems to sort them out instead of running away from them...but with me its not depression that is the problem it is chronic anxiety which now is turning into depression as i have left it for too long....It is now three weeks since i started taking flu..the side effects seems to wear off but i still get drowsy at times...i am sorry to be complaining so much it is just that yesterday wasnt my day

Take care Azzi and make sure you enjoy yourself x