Sleepless,alone and scared.
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8 weeks into the worst nervous breakdown of my life now, my poor husband is exhausted cos he's doing everything for me and he's up all hours with me too, some nights it's 2 hours sleep if lucky.
Tonight is no different for me, scared, awake and going over my fears, knowing I will wake panicking non stop if I ever do manage to sleep, don't know if I'll be able to even get dressed tomorrow, know I need to leave the house but not believing I can do it and even if I do I know I will panic cos I do every day.
This morning was so bad with panic that I was screaming at the out of hours mental health team to section me, they obviously didn't.
Anyway my husband is asleep, he is desperate and can't stay awake and I'm not doing well with all of this on my own.
I keep telling myself I can phone the crisis team again but scared no one will be available or it will be an unhelpful one, some are not great, it's pot luck.
I don't know why I'm posting really, no one can do anything and I expect people will be trying to go to bed too but it's being alone that's so horrible
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kerry84695 BellaLuna
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jmcg2014 BellaLuna
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BellaLuna jmcg2014
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I'm sorry you are suffering too, everything you describe is how i feel too, i don't even know how i'm still here, to be honest i have many moments of wanting to end it all, i told them that too and they don't care, good luck with your fight.
jmcg2014 BellaLuna
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I know i am desperately ill but believe meds are not the only way, sadly they think they are but i will tell them.
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