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Just a quick bit about me, I'm 20, female, smoker of 5 years, trying to quit as pregnant now.
I've had this small lump on the roof of my mouth for at least a few years now from what I can remember. It's never bothered me before but a couple months ago I ate something that knocked it and I noticed it was there again, and in the past few years I have become increasingly anxious. Anyway I was terrified it was oral cancer. It's only a few mm and I'm not sure if it's white or pale or just the colour of that area of my mouth.. It's hard and doesn't move as far as I can tell with my tongue and its about 2 mm off center right on the part where the hard palate changes to the soft palate.
It's quite hard to notice I think, I've had braces since and the orthodontist or dentist has never mentioned it..
I got so so anxious about it I finally made myself go to the doctor and got her to check it out, she said she wouldn't worry about it and that it's probably just a build up of tissue where the two palates meet so I decided to try and forget about it. Then the other day I knocked it again and noticed it, it's still pretty much the same as far as I can tell, maybe a teeeeeeny bit bigger but I'm not sure if that's just where I've been playing with it or what. Anyway now I'm terrified again. I'm not sure if it's because it takes loads for me to be reassured and she didn't seem all that experienced or the fact that I've had quite a bad experience with doctors in general because they give me so many different answers, but I've literally been panicking constantly to the point I can't sleep again even though she said it was fine. I've made an appointment with another doctor for a few days time to get a second opinion.. I'm scared for a few reasons - if he says its fine will I believe him? If he says its fine but then says to get it checked by a specialist to ease my mind I'm worried he'll just be saying that and thinking it is actually something serious and finally I'm worried he'll say to go and see someone because it is serious! ALSO because I've had it for years, what if it is serious and it's two late?! I read that only 50% of people with oral cancer survive past 5 years
I'm so so scared, I've got a little boy on the way and I just can't stop stressing over this but I'm worried even if it's fine I'm still not going to be reassured.
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