So here's the deal
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I'm mad at my doctor. REALLY mad. REALLY REALLY mad. Is that enogh REALLYS? She and I talked in her office for an hour or more. She was wonderful, let me vent. let me say it all. Gave me the secret code if I need to talk. But I'm still mad. I'm a nice person, but I'm holding onto this anger. I realized yesterday that I'm actually counting up grievances against here. It's like the worst disagreement with your husband, and you have to look at him across the table over the corn flakes in the morning. So yesterday I started comparing this to Elizabeth Kubler-Ross's paridigm in her book Death and Dying, and the stages. There is denial, depression, bargaining, anger, resolution and acceptance. I think with her, my doc, I got stuck in the Anger stage. So I have to either give up my anger at her (but I want to hold onto it) LOL, and allow her to be my doctor as she was pre PMR or find another doctor. You gals who said I'm nice don't realize that I can also be controlling and stubborn. Someone said something yesterday on here that got me thinking about this. I have such an edge even if I have to call the office. This is not helping me at all. It was so helpful yesterday because it made me think about my attitude toward her. My hubster and I talked about it today when we were in the car, and I was really acting like a spoiled brat about her. Time to grow up Elizabeth. But even being able to act it out with him made me realize that it's decision time. Grow up and move on, or change doctors. I think that I'll actually be a grown up, and get over it. LOL. I have a friend and when she's acting like a contrite child she'll call and say that she was actually a grown up today. And she'll tell me what she did. Then we laugh about it. So it's time for me to act like a grown up. If I don't then I have to let her off of the hook, and find a doctor who can help me. I think not calling about the med decrease was part of my acting out. I don't know 'cause I'm just trying all of this out, but it seems like I do need to talk with her. So I called yesterday, and she won't be back until Monday. Drat, and I go to 5 mg. tomorrow. Way too low. So I have to call and talk to the covering physician, and I want her. I want my Mommy. Grow up Elizabeth, or reduce your pred and suffer. Then I can blame her. LOL. Thanks for letting me vent.
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IssyR elizabeth53956
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Is this really you...? or is it me under a false name lol....your whole post could have been me last week..!! So VERY VERY angry with my doctor...After a million blood tests that showed most things normal including my inflammation numbers...SO my doc emailed rheumatology who suggested testing my vit D level...which came back really low...My doc said that's the decider, you don't have PMR...so i was started on Vit D capsules and told to come off pred 1mg a week...i was on 10mg by the time i got to 6-5mg i could barely function. Some folk think it's becaused i weaned off them to quickly BUT it's the same pain and stiffness as i had before i started pred...like u i couldn't talk to my own doc and the doc on duty didn't want to commit...her advice was to stick at the 5mg til i could see my own doc who although she doesn't believe it's PMR let me increase until i eventually get my rheumy appt.....it's awfy frustrating...it feels like i have a half decent appt then the following appt it's as though the appt before didn't happen...Anywhooo at the moment my anger is on an even keel, just have to wait to see what rheumy says....hope your doc lets you increase your pred...i know a lot of people say "you have to insist" but when it comes right down to it the docs control the meds.....good luck Elizabeth xx
FlipDover_Aust IssyR
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"We tend to write blandly that the cause of pmr is unknown and there's no cure, just treatment for symptoms. But its fairly significant as we try to muddle our way around it as best we can."
Muddling is exactly what we do.... it's always different for every person and it's not individually predictable either.
We want to trust the Drs. We are desperate to trust them. We want to take a pill and make it all better, and when that doesn't happen we get mad. Mad with ourselves for getting sick, mad with our lives, made with our family and mad with the medical fraternity.
What we really have to remember is that this is NOT going to kill us. We're the lucky ones.
EileenH IssyR
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Low vit D is commonly found in almost all autoimmune disorders but whether it is cause or effect isn't known. Vit D is one of the exclusion tests that should be done at the beginning because its symptoms are sometimes very similar to PMR - if it is low then you supplement with high dose vit D (60,000 IU a week for 8-10 weeks) and retest. If the symptoms disappear as the weeks progress then it probably WAS the low vit D. If they don't and are still there as bad once the vit D is somewhere decent - then it isn't JUST low vit D.
And to be fair to the patient - if you start them on pred and the pain goes immediately - then it is more likely to be PMR than low vit D. Pred won't usually help low vit D. If the pain comes back as you reduce then that is even more likely. If you haven't been on pred more than a couple of weeks then reducing 1mg a week is fine. If it is the vit D then replenishing it will allow you to wean off pred quickly when you try it - a few weeks extra on under 10mg isn't going to kill anyone if it leaves you pain-free.
lodgerUK_NE IssyR
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I did not have PMR but I did have GCA when all of a sudden aches and pains just like PMR, but I was on a high dose of pred at the time, so a Vit D Test and it was so low.
I was put on 40,000 units per day for 10 days aches and pains vanished after six days. Another blood test and then 20,000 units per day for 5 days. I still take a maintenance dose of 1000 units per day (bought OTC from Boots).
GCA went into remission after 5 years and is still in remission 6 years later.
Hope this helps.
elizabeth53956 IssyR
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Elizabeth
EileenH elizabeth53956
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And NO-ONE with PMR will get off pred with " ... two weeks at each stage and be free of the pred. I've had this "i just want it to be over' feeling, and I guess I'm just not going to sail through this with one course of the typical protocol." If they do - it wasn't "our" PMR.
I was given 2 weeks each of 15/10/5 and stop - the pain was acceptable at 5mg even, within 6 hours of not having taken a 5mg pill with breakfast and I was in bed in worse pain than before. It took years to get back to 5mg!
PMR is an ongoing problem, a new source of inflammation will be shed in the body every morning as long as the autoimmune disorder is active. That is how you can get to a lower dose - the 15mg starting dose is one that should work for almost everyone to clear out the existing inflammation. Then you look for the dose that copes with the daily "dust" - like doing a spring clean and then just light dusting in between.
Silver49 IssyR
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linda17563 EileenH
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lodgerUK_NE linda17563
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It won't go up much unless she is prescribed a high dose and that means at least 20,000 units per day. I did tell you in a previous posting what I was prescribed and my level was 48 - way above your sister's 17.
Mind it does depend on what scale they use, my hospital trust - tope end 148 OK, anything below 100 not OK.
EileenH lodgerUK_NE
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Vitamin D deficiency is actually one of the things they should do in their differential diagnosis for PMR. I do hope they check that it has risen to where it is meant to be - and the only way is to do the blood test. And again in another 6 months to be sure it is still where it should be.
IssyR lodgerUK_NE
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EileenH IssyR
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If it is 25 mmol/L then it is deficient and you would need about 5000IU to get it up to a optimum level.
There is a factor of 2.5 difference between ng/ml and mmol/L: 20 ng/ml is 50 mmol/L. Most authorities these days feel that 75mmol is the bottom end of optimum.
lodgerUK_NE IssyR
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I went down with Vit D deficiency after an op last November and I had never stopped taking the 1000 units per day.
My Gp just said 'here we go again, did the test, 20,000 units, three days per week for a month. Another test - back up to the level. Continue to take daily dose. £5.10 for 90 tablets is a no brainer.
pauline36422 elizabeth53956
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3 weeks till i am on 3 every day and it is working so far, i know its slow but
i dont get many withdrawals doing it like this, and i dont have any pmr pain either.
just hope i can manage like this till i am down to zero. but that is not my aim just now, if i get down to 2mg i will take it even slower xx
julian. pauline36422
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my aim while on high dose was to decrease to reduce the side effects, now on low dose I'm more inclined to take it slowly slowly and be careful of symptoms returning. Being methodical helps me. Take less when I said I would rather than finding all the excuses under the sun to not.