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I've suffered with anxiety/panic attacks for the last 17 years. I have been on citalopram for 13 years and have stopped just over 2 weeks ago and started sertraline 50mg instead. Citalopram was not working very well anymore. The first 2 weeks everything was fine and in the last 3 days my anxiety is awful!!! I always feel like I'm the only to feel this way as the symptoms are so intense that I wonder how I manage to go through the day. I feel like jelly, mind racing, jaw is so tense that I feel like screaming so much everything is, all the usual symptoms I guess plus waves of being petrified! I can't think or eat it's awful Im so scared I'm going insane! I have an appt at the docs this afternoon but im so scared. He'll probably increase the dose but im terrified it will be like this for the next 2 weeks!! I just had it! It's so unfair! It ruins my life! I had CBT but didn't help much, I try to distract myself and do some breathing exercises but how long again is this gonna last for!! I'm going on holiday in 3 weeks and I NEED TO BE OK!!! Everything feels unreal and unsafe I hate it so much. I want to feel like myself right now! I'm panicking as it's the weekend soon so it's not like I can distract myself with work... It will be so hard does anyone ever feel so intense, petrified, jellyfish, frozen, feel like ur going to collapse, or scream or going mad... Please someone reassure me. My partner doesn't understand any of it and I can't blame him. My family is abroad and I don't really tell them as mum is very anxious anyway and when I talk or see them for some weird reasons my anxiety is over the roof! I love them to bits but I guess I associate them with my first panic attacks so I find it extremely difficult to forget that. It's awful as I always find excuses not to see them or if I have to i panick weeks before.... This whole thing is a nightmare and I feel so lonely. X
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