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thanks lynn x hope you're doing a little better.

yeah the depression seems to lift a little in the evenings sometimes. the anxiety is sky high and the depression comes and goes in the evenings x

I'll keep pushing through x it's hard to do when feeling so terrible x

what dose have you ended up settling on? x

I know how you feel. Yesterday was good for me. Today I woke up with those thoughts of awful fear, but not the physical symptoms. My mind gets stuck in a loop and I cant stay completely in the present moment. I got up and took a shower. It,s 13 degrees outside and 6 inches of snow, but the sun is bright. I am on 62.5 mgs of sertraline. I have been off the luvox for ten days now and up on the sertraline. Is it hard for you to not ruminate and stay completely in the present moment. I know for me it is a defense mechanism ; I used it continually as a child, but its not helpful now because I am no longer in danger. I hope the thoughts of a new baby bring some joy into your life.

no I'm not planning on hurting myself so that's atleast positive x

I would definitely talk to someone straight away if I was planning on it x thanks babsyboo for checking x

it's best I stick to one med rather than switching for now I think as lexapri can still cause side effects and stuff and withdrawals would make me worse right now x

Hi

how are u holding up today ? It's morning and I'm not so good with the mornings yet how about u ? I still get very high anxiety early morning as soon as I'm awake and up that goes till noon or so . But evenings are starting to get better I think . I'm starting on week 6 today so we see how it goes , slow lol

is the depression calming down as of yesterday ? U on week 7 right so early for us but will get better from all I read on here . Yes changing would have side effects just u have now u right . Yes stay on what u are but maybe ask ur Dr if u on to high of the meds because the 20 MG is usely the one for most amen . I'm so happy u not hurting yourself and would seek help before that would happen ☺ how long till u a dad ?

hey dubry how are you doing now?

it's too hard to tell if something is too high or not as I wouldn't know what to look out for. I have been on 40mg before with no problems at all in the past.

thank you buddy x trying my best to keep exercising and eating right x 😊

thank you. I worry about lowering my dose because I would be starting again from the beginning so to speak. and adding withdrawals in would be really scary right now.

so did it take 12 weeks before you noticed any change at all? how did you know your dose was too high if that's ok to ask?

thank you x

just a quick reminder on how i felt my dose was too high.the withdrawls i was experiencing became worse i had headaches from the withdrawls but once i started taking the cit the withdrawls became more intense severely intense.that is how i knew it was the cit.saying prayers for you .i know what you are feeling all too well.

Between 8-12 weeks is when I started to notice little changes. Soon after I managed to start helping myself again to repair everything. In all honesty 20mg was fine for me, but now I'm better I want to start feeling more human again. I don't intend to try n come off cit for at least another year, but reducing my dose has definitely helped me more.

thanks for replying. x

what positive differences have you noticed since dropping back down again?

it's so hard to keep going when feeling so terrible isn't it.

so no improvements until 8 -12 weeks. it's hard to know what to look out for as everyday is so different and bad in it's own way if that makes sense x

I'm worried about decreasing as I really don't want to restart the clock all over again and then it turns out it's the wrong decision if that makes sense x

thanks lois. the tingling under the skin has stopped and the muscle aches are better than they were l, I assume they were withdrawals because they have stopped now even though I feel worse than I did a few weeks ago x

Im only just starting on these (on day 16) but im having the strange feeling skin symptom with a sore, burning type feeling on a small area of one arm and also the side of my neck. Did you find your skin over sensitive and easily irritated? Im wondering if my shirt is the cause of todays neck skin soreness and burning along with my increased anxiety

that is good to hear potato about the withdraws .so now is time to figure out how to approach the uncomfortable feelings from the side effects from the cit.iam a strong believer with ssri that less is more.

when I increased to 30mg I felt terrible for a week or so but the depression left and so did the dizzyness and my appetite came back. I seemed to stop worrying about going crazy too. until the past maybe 10 days the depression is back in the mornings but really bad

it lifts in the evening then the anxiety is full on.

I'm hoping the depression lifts soon because I forgot how horrible it is.

I'm worried about decreasing as ill have to start all over again and withdrawals again too.

remember when I went up to 40mg I was starting to feel better last time then my stupid doc changed me x

I definitely had skin sensitivity as anxiety caused that for me and it's a side effect. not a common one I don't think but have heard a few people mention it x keep going and see if it passes x I'm sure lois will know more x

if what you are describing above is happening thats a good thing potato.stay the course.if its lifting in the evenings embrace those evenings =the meds working!!!

that's what I always tell people but I wasn't depressed like this a few weeks ago x so its come back again that's what worries me x plus the anxiety in the evening is still pretty strong still.

if anything I feel worse because depression is back in the mornings if that makes sense x ❤

also the past few days the depression was in waves every few minutes or so now it's not in waves so I'm worried about that aswell x sorry to be a moan x

thats just part of this dreadful process .the more you worry about it the more your going to suffer.it aint harming you .your nervous system is all over the place and is going to take sometime to repair.thank goodness you have your partner that also suffers from this horrible illness.i did not have anyone that understood my illness.

potatoghost do you ever get racing thoughts

24/7 with anxiety x

yeah she is great! I thought you were married 🤔 maybe I just assumed because you are so lovely x and I got you aswell don't forget ❤

it's hard not to worry it will stay .so if it buggers off again atleast I will know that it's just my CNS being a plum!

its probably still the dose change as when i change dose i feel amazing for a few weeks x

iam married but he did not understand all my doctors test that all came back negative.now if he suffered from mental illness it would of been easier for him to understand.

yeah definitely bless him x does he understand a little more now? hes one of the lucky ones to not have to suffer with it x

I always feel like that when I decrease rather than increase x its bliss for a few weeks then boom!

hope it settles for you soon! if i dont settle anymore in a few months im dropping regardless, dont think my body likes this drug at all!

he understands now.and my recovery made him understand.in the Beginning he would say it was all in my head.yuck

I bet you wanted to uppercut him and punch his beard off! 😅💪💪

are you just gonna take the plunge and come off completely?

you have suffered long enough now x

actually no.i was sad that he could not understand but i knew he was concern.

no because i dont want to cause myself permanent damage, ive read enough about those, no way! x

The biggest difference is my emotions. It nice to feel a little bit again. To feel excited n passionate about the stuff. Lowering my dose has definitely helped my libido as well.

I don't really seem to have any side effects either from lowering my dose. That could change in the coming weeks/months but I like to think I can handle them with positive thoughts, exercise ect.

It was defo between 8-12 weeks for me. I remember one day I just started to smile again, only for a few minutes but that's when I knew they were working.

Just keep positive thoughts and just power through the next few weeks n see how they go. You can always try lowering the dose after that to see if that works.

thank you x I'm just gonna keep powering through as best as I can x thank you for your support and kind words x it's such a long process to find what's right and what's not isnt it x

I'm too scared to ask lol x

aww bless you x sorry lois ❤ atleast things are good for you now that's the important thing x

i wouldnt either x

yes this drug save my life.no ifs and buts about it.

why is my anxiety so horrible in the morning. 20 days of luvox.

i just had a panic attack

because of high cortisol

did it take months to get rid of anxiety.

yes mam