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The 12 pack is almost done and I am calling in to work to not show

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PhallicMoron
PhallicMoron

Not to mention things are super messed up with my son's mom and us. We were supposed to get married. I broke a promise to not drink. I HATE THIS. I've detoxed before. It's fine, I have messed up problems besides this. I am scared. I hate myself and I want to die. Please. Don't yell at me.

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  • bardo
    bardo PhallicMoron

    Posted

    Good Morning love,

    Please don't hate yourself, I have broken many promises and yes you have screwed up but today is another day to start again. I myself have detoxed twice and binged drank again. Take the day off work and get some rest and then think again how you can make things better. You are not alone in this, keep coming on here and get all the support and help you can. Yes you broke a promise, you are human and we all do, please don't be tempted to drink anymore and it really will not help - I know!!

    Take care and get some rest!

    Sara xxx

  • PhallicMoron
    PhallicMoron

    Posted

    Just two more beers in the fridge. I am very hurt about her. Like I am finally realizing this problem. SHE BROKE PROMISES TOO!!! and I am mad.But we made a promise to not leave NO MATTER what, and hear I am with a ring she tossed inmy face. Alone. In my apartment, Listening to awful music. Just not sure what to do.
  • PhallicMoron
    PhallicMoron

    Posted

    She has PTSD, and that ain't my problem. I have a problem. 
  • bardo
    bardo PhallicMoron

    Posted

    I have been in a very similar situation with my other half - I promise all the time I won't drink and then I do and we fall out big time - But he does forgive me. I understand how you are feeling as when I am drunk I get angry at him and all the times he has let me down and normally the rows get 100 times worse. Plus the music wont help - I do that all the time and it will make you feel much worse.

    Easy to say love but try and throw them cans down the drain, try and eat something and try and sleep, that will be making the first step - just open the cans and throw them away - they won't help I promise you and you will feel much better knowing that you are in control not the booze. I have to go out now but i will be thinking of you and come back later xxxxx

    • PhallicMoron
      PhallicMoron bardo

      Posted

      Thank you. I will wake up and take the boy to the sitter. Meanwhile she is hurting too. Thank you so much for responding. It means so much.
  • patricia44773
    patricia44773 PhallicMoron

    Posted

    How could any of us yell at you??  I, for one, just feel great sympathy and empathy for you.  I think Sara's advice is the best, just try to get some sleep and sober up long enough to look at your situation in the light of day.  

    I am so sorry you are feeling as you are.  My Mum always used to say "It won't always be dark at seven".....things change.  Hang on in there and keep us posted on how you are doing.

    Pat

  • nantucket01
    nantucket01 PhallicMoron

    Posted

    Hi my name is george and im 55 ish, been drinking forever and now drinking in the morning like you , i have a hospitol appointment about my liver tommorow and kid myself as we all do that drinking will make things better and it does for a couple of hours or so but that lenght of time decreses and in the end its hardly bloody worth it,   i stooped for 2 weeks a short time ago and belive me it is possible but also a little bit painfull, sleeping and nightmares are horrible for a day or 2 , you can do it its just very daughtung , i have a lovely 3rd wife and daughter, and yes befor you ask i lost the oyher 2 cos of my drinking, if i were you and able too i would take a week off work and buy 4 beers and lock myself in the house untill the cravings got esier to cope with start with the high alchohol beers and then try and get down to the 2.2% stuff what i call driving beer , if the hospitol says iv got a bit of time left than tats how im gonna attack this addiction,  good luck and it is doaable
  • PhallicMoron
    PhallicMoron

    Posted

    Gosh you guys are so British! Hehe. But it's not so bad that I need to lock myself. Although, I did lock myself. Called in sick to work.

    The nightmares are awful. I have a big bottle of trazadone. I work nights so..

    Thanks for listening.

    • patricia44773
      patricia44773 PhallicMoron

      Posted

      So what's so wrong with being British???  We still get drunk and we still have alcohol problems.  We aren't that much different from any other countrymen in the world....but perhaps we are more supportive and caring and that is why we are here, on this site.

      Perhaps your site name says a lot about you??!!  

  • vicki01949
    vicki01949 PhallicMoron

    Posted

    hi, im vicki please dont do anything stupid we all mess up i do it regularly i live with it i think we all do on these pages...........i was drunk last night again got a serious headache...... and dont hate yourself thats the worst part self hatred.... pick yourself up and start again today>>>>>>> lifes too short i know xxxxxxx

  • patricia44773
    patricia44773 PhallicMoron

    Posted

    How are things today?  I was hoping there would be a post from you letting us know how you are.  

    My thoughts are with you.

    • PhallicMoron
      PhallicMoron patricia44773

      Posted

      I am sorry, I didn't mean to make fun, it was just a joke. I know we're all the same. Been up since 11pm, can't call in to work again. Have to try to sleep now. I need a xanax because those work on the brain the same way alcohol does. I am going to look for professional help. I ruined my engagement with the only woman I've loved. Anyone want a ring? Ha.
    • patricia44773
      patricia44773 PhallicMoron

      Posted

      I am sorry too, I didn't mean to hurt you.  I am glad you have posted and that you are intending getting some professional help.  Did the doctor prescribe Xanax for you?  He must be aware of your anxiety and depression, you sound terribly down, you really do need help.  I am sorry to hear about your girlfriend too, that's very sad.

      Anyway, I hope you manage to get some sleep and that you feel better for it.

    • PhallicMoron
      PhallicMoron patricia44773

      Posted

      Haven't gone to the Dr. No time. I chatted online with an Intensive Outpatiet Group that my insurance will pay for. Seriously my life is falling apart, and we just found out she's pregnant so we're really not sure what to do. I cannot wait until this weekend when this alcohol is out of my blood. I have trazadone to sleep but that is really just for sleeping during the day for work. If the withdrawal is bad enough my nightmares will keep me up. I will save so much money not buying beer all the time. I KNEW I shouldn't have touched the hard liquor on Monday night. She made me promise that I wouldn't stay up and drink, and what do I do?? Nearly finish the bottle. I've ruined everything! Her Dad was a drunk so it stings her a lot more. She was right, how can you love someone you don't trust? I don't even like myself, so how can I like someone else? I hope this program doesn't try to shove religion down my throat because that does not fly with me as I am an atheist. Phew, that feels a bit better.

    • patricia44773
      patricia44773 PhallicMoron

      Posted

      Wow, you really DO have problems!  I can't even imagine being in your position.  I can't find any words to say that would help......just remember to reach out when you need to.  And you really should find time for the doctor visit.  You needn't worry about the religion thing either, I haven't come across any preachers on here and I don't think I will, it's just good, solid advice.

      Keep your chin up,

      Pat

       

    • vicki01949
      vicki01949 PhallicMoron

      Posted

      how are you today?? i have read your posts with patricia she sounds like a very sensible lady ........things will get better i will be here later ....

      vik x

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