The mind goes wild during menopause!!!! Need to talk!
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Does anyone feel like they just want to run away? My job and my coworkers are getting on my nerves(I don't like my job, but I like my coworkers). I'm also feeling paranoid like I might get fired(I know this is not true). I feel worthless like life is passing me by.
?Also does anyone feel like they are going insane or dying? I try to help myself by praying, exercising, drinking plenty of water, taking a multivitamin, garlic oil, fish oil, D3 and I'm going to start taking turmeric, it's supposed to help with a lot of things but I want to take it because it is a anti inflammatory and also helps with anxiety(I hope to be able to get off the antidepressant).
?I'm taking a mild antidepressant called Trazodone, and I have Valium for the really rough days(I only take it about twice a week anyway). Sometimes I can go for a week and feel "normal", no dark thoughts, just happy and looking forward to the future and then boom! The craziness is back! I can't imagine how I would feel if I were not doing the few things I'm doing. I have crazy thoughts like I'm going to kick the bucket before I have a chance to live out at least most of my dreams(I try to pray those thoughts away). Anyway sorry this is so long, I just wish I felt more like me again!!
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katyD211 juanita93228
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No apologies necessary, Juanita...we totally feel what you're saying . I know I have felt like you have...off and on...quite often. When I get to the point of tears, and hit my knees in prayer, is when I usually get a reprieve. Or a period. 😒 Seems to rebalance me.
Keep talking it out to empathetic women like the wonderful ladies in this forum. We uplift each other!
juanita93228 katyD211
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mauiblue juanita93228
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yes you are NOT alone.
I feel cookoo sometimes/most times... and i know its the hormones, its like im becoming a different person, and have lost my old self.
I tried hrt and bio hrt for months on end and now ive realized that they did not help. Im hoping i dont get worse bu im tapering carefully. Ive tried antidepressants and can not tolerate. I take lots of supplements and whows if my digetion is good enough to be able to utilize them because without a healthy gut, you dont absorb anything.
I think this time of our lives is meant to go deep, reinvent ourselves, learn from the past, be gentle with ourselves.
My moods are completely altered now in menopause, its been very difficult. I make each day to be a challenge, and if i make it through the day i am proud of myself at night for getting through. I go to bed and no matter how rotten and dark i felt, i give thanks for my life, my boys, having been given this gift.
For me its day to day for sure.
I have found it to be a time for renewing, acceptance, saying goodbye to the past, and be gentle with ourselves.
Also to find joy in anything everyday, its really hard when you feel empty, but life is precious and i look around me and see that in nature, and in my kids. I see this in the hearts of all the women here also, i feel supported and loved.
I totally understand you Juanita, and i am with you on this as well. I am grateful for this forum, we are in this together..truly.
xoxox
Guest mauiblue
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I love what you say about moving on from the past and being gentle with ourselves. I was raised in an environment in which my sister and I were expected to forge ahead, no matter what, and now both of us struggle terribly with slowing down and getting the care we need. Ironically, both of us have autoimmune diseases as well. But now that new problems have presented themselves in peri, I am going through the painful process of getting myself to understand that I must slow down and take this day by day because there's no other way to live life, especially when so much is happening at once. We are in this together for sure and I am always so grateful for you and all the ladies here who continue to shine a light on the truth about walking through this phase of life.
juanita93228 mauiblue
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What a wonderful way to see this time in our lives! I have been so bummed these last two weeks. I think I'm looking too much into the future and not enjoying the present. And you are right, no matter how dark your day is always give thanks to God for that day and thank him for many more, because not all of those days will be dark.
?I went nuts this morning because of a minor recurring health issue that had cleared up for months. Of course I went to Dr. Google,( something I hadn't done in months) positive I had stomach or colon cancer. You know what? the symptoms they listed for the disease are all on the list of menopause symptoms. They should tell women look, if you are seeing your doctor regularly, 99 percent of the time you're not dying from some dread disease. It's amazing the things we let roll off our backs when we were full of hormones now sends us into a full blown panic.
? Thank you for your reply. I really do have a lot to be thankful for.(((((hugs))))
juanita93228 mauiblue
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Btw Trazodone was the only antidepressant I was able to tolerate because it's an old school SNRI, not one of these horrible SSRI's that make you feel worse(sometimes as long as four weeks)before you feel better. Who wants to deal with that? I already feel bad and you want me to take something that will make me feel worse, oh and then I'll feel better? No Thanks.
mauiblue Guest
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Yes ... we all move through this, however difficult it is,we move and we take it a day at a time.
Dont be hard on yourself, just take it easy and appreciate who you are because we are amazing actually to even be able to handle this time in our lives.
Not only is so much happening within our bodies, but in the world that we live in now. We cant afford to be hard on ourselves anymore and this is part of the change i guess.
its very hard for me to practice what i am saying but i think its the best, kindest way to live to get through it.
x0x0x0
mauiblue juanita93228
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yes i know the hormones we used to have armed us with calm, patience, resilience that we didnt know we would be losing,,
i handled sooo much more before meno or peri..it was like it could do anything pretty much if i set my mind to it.
im reduced to a fragile shell of who i was, but i am trying to change my attitude and understand that its just happening and who is to say that this process is so terrible and for the worse?
yes the symptoms are terrible, especially the dark moods that have taken over, but i remind msyelf that im transitioning into a newer person and i will come out ....WE will all come out of this STRONGER , and more lovely in a different way.
thanks for the hugs Juanita
i need them badly....just me and the boys...and the weight of the world on my shoulders
Guest mauiblue
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This is so true. We live in a pretty tough world and in many ways it’s a miracle to get through each day. I’m definitely working on relaxing more and am spending more time with my family, especially my young nephews. They help me feel better and make me laugh. There are no guarantees and we just do the best we can. You’re right about how amazing we are! 🌸