The plan

Not to be short temperated Joanna...but I just stated the plan....get what I need...to detox...which I want nothing more...but I can't do this alone with no "stuff".  My DR called and said sodium was low...told me to eat noodles (broth) and drink a sports drink...NOPE...no taxi...no delivery...had that been the case...I would not be where I am right now.

​Then my mother calls me and wants to "pick my brain"....I told her...I am in no condition for worrying about anything except getting supplies right now...and i couldn't have even gotten to the point of WANTING to without the alcohol I did get.

​Now planning where to hide it...etc.  and to answer shelley....I have minimal medication to detox...but the food and drink will help.

The Drs know the situation and my state of mind of giving up.

​But not wanting to give up at the same time. I won't give up...but will continue to take care of myself I guess...as always forced to...BELIEVE me...my last desire is to drive to the store...or shop for that matter.

Forgive me if I misunderstood your post, but it seems to me that your plan you post of above is exactly the same as it was today - go to the store and get the items you need to help you.

However, that plan didn't work too well today since you bought alcohol instead.

So, I feel my question is valid and you should look at options for ensuring that you don't repeat today.  There are lots of ways you can do this, from ensuring that someone else goes with a list of what you need.... or ask someone to go with you so you are accountable to someone.

I am trying to help you look at ways that you can eliminate (or at least reduce) the chances of today's buying of alcohol repeating itself tomorrow.

 

My money is on nothing, I'm already counting my winnings.

You seem very defensive and angry Misssy.

If you REALLY want this you will do it, you have to either not go to the shops or send someone else.

The problem  JE...is I ddn't have the strengh during detox to get list. One 12 pak was easier than what I just did.  your question VERY valid.

RHGB....all I can say to your right now is sobriety  is not a guarantee...but degrading or belittling or judging posts are always guaranteed in forum when anyone subjects their honesty about alcohol consumption in a forum with mixed sobriety lengths.  Take what you need, leave the rest...better yet move on if this is not a topic you can contribute constructively to

Exactly!  

If you had thought your plan through with the intention of protecting yourself, you could have arrived at the shop and politely explained to the cashier that you feel ill, and ask them to pick up the items for you and then brought them to you at the till.  Most shops are happy to help those that are in discomfort, especially if you are only needing half a dozen items fetching.

So now you see why the same is possibly going to happen tomorrow unless you do something different?

If anything, tomorrow will be even worse for you because you have the alcohol in your system from today and that will be driving you nuts to buy drink again.

Can shops sell alcohol 24 hours where you live?  If not, if you were really serious about this then you can return to the shop tomorrow outside of the licensing hours and get the items then.  There are tons of things you can do different if you really, really want to.

There is always another another 'tomorrow', Misssy - until there isn't! 

Act tomorrow to really, honestly, and intentionally start to get yourself well again. 

betting on someones demise...does not prove to be helpful.  Some sort of superiority complex....which I understand as I get the same "problem" when sober...

I did get to the store and get the items I need so that I will not leave the house tommorow. It is not only people in this room I need to show I can do this...it is mainly myself.  And since I only have myself at this point...I did what I could today. 

​Absoultely tommorow will be harder now...cause of consumed alcohol...but today was unbearable...with no food and no supplies for sobriety...so I have changed that excuse for tommorow.

Brilliant, well done!

That is the type of action that is needed to keep moving forward.

Chuffed for you!

Well, that got the response I was looking for.

Have I annoyed you? Are you angry with me? I do hope so. Because if I haven't I'll turn it up a notch.

I would become unbearable if you came back and I said, I told you so.

So now you have an extra incentive to get it right. You wouldn't want to give me the satisfaction of being right, would you?

Am sure misssy will realise the reason for what you said and why. Knowing her she would want to prove you wrong! Which she did, so well done both of you