The torture

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I guess I should thank God that a friend fom out of state called the police yesterday I was in SCHOCK and I wasn't very helpful to the police....cause again, I was in bad shape...and still am.  One grabbed a beer from me and I stupidly got it all over him....can crushing and he became a little upset.

​He said there went my chances of smoking a cig prior to leaving.

​UGH...the recovery progress is not as good as I would like...I can't eat today...barely drinking water...All kinds of Drs calling...I can't move....But, I'm not drinking alcohol....

​Trying to focus on the TV and praying the hours move faster...to the next day of recovery.

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    I've not been posting as I thought it was my iPad. Couldn't read or send messages.

    ive not drank for a week now and feel much better.

    misssy sorry you're having such a hard time, but please hang in there.

    regards to all and will be posting now site seems to be working properly.

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      Thanks. First couple of days, I gave all access to money to my husband to avoid temptation. I know the saying "if you want a drink, you can always get one", but this way helped me.
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      I am at the point where I have and still am trying anything.  Last night was my final straw.  All I did was cry.  I messaged a friend and said "come here now" and I told her and my husband I just can't do this anymore.  Then this morning I came across your post.  I have now just handed over the credit cards, debit cards, and cash to my husband.  I also gave him the checkbook and will just ask for a check when I have appointments.  I know I can always use that check to get cash out of the bank.  Thank you so much for this wonderful idea!  I hate giving over control but at this point this is exactly what I need!  I don't know if you believe in God but I do now more than ever because I feel hope.  THANK YOU!
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      Hi kelly

      its not nice to admit I've no money! I knew I'd lost control and would be so easy to keep going to buy booze.

      i hope you will stay with us now. Robin always refers to having to hit "rock bottom" on this forum for some people. Maybe that was ours.

      yes, I do believe in God, but am a very lapse Catholic!

      keep posting and am pleased you have hope xx

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      I was feeling extremely down last night.  I wasn't very nice to anyone.  

      I called a friend and had a sob session with her and my husband.  I just felt no hope.  I woke up and seen your post and felt hope again.

      I did put a call into my doctor about nalrexone.  I like the thought of there in case the withdrawals become too intense.  I'm going to try to do this on my own with the help of outpatient and group therapy.  But, like the idea of having a backup.  Last night was insane.

      I think you're right.  I believe I hit my rock bottom on here last night.  I feel hope for the first time in months!  Thank you for posting that!!

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      I also called off work for tonight.  That is not like me to do that.  So, I know I need to do something.  I'll just make sure my husband has gas in my vehicle and if I need something he'll have to be with to purchase it.  Not sure how long I'll have to depend on him to NOT give me money but it's all I can think of right now to help me.  

      I'll be coming home from work or appointments with no intention of picking up alcohol but I do.  And it's too easy having money on me. sad

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      Diazepam or similar is best for withdrawals, if you mean the first four days.

      If the right quantity is taken, it takes all the hardship out of detox. Cold turkey is unpleasant.

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      Well I have lorazapam and baclofen that helped me before.  It was when I layed off of them is when I had my relapse after 2 weeks sober. I will talk to my doctor about some of those meds.  Are they ok to use with Naltrexone?
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      Lorazepam is a benzo like diazepam and and Librium. But they should not be taken with alcohol. If you are going down the naltrexone route, you will not need them, because you drink with naltrexone.

      If you said, I'm going to stop comepletely tomorrow, then benzos would help, the lorazepam you have is probably for anxiety and is probably 2mg tablets.

      Where a detox would use 5mg tablets, at least 2 tabs, morning, noon and evening.

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      I was going to try the detox route first but still have the naltrexone on hand should the detox route not work for me. (again)  At this moment, I"m saying that I'm completely stopping today and praying the meds help me.

      Should they not, I'm still taking clonazapam daily for many years.  Will that interract with the naltrexone since clonazapam is a benzo also? I'm so immuned to taking the clonazapam that I've taken it with alcohol all of the time.  I'm just concerned about taking them with naltrexone.

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      I'm not a doctor and I don't or haven't taken naltexone (I use another medication).

      Probably not so much, as you take it in low dosages, but get someone like Joanna to answer that in the other thread. When you ask, say that you have been taking it years, for anxiety and state the dosage, to help give you the best answer.

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