There is life after anxiety
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I wanted to post this in hopes that it could help reassure even if it's just one person that is going through the same thing I am.
I started on Cit 3 weeks and 2 days ago. I'm sure I don't have to explain the hell I was going through. Side effects were terrible, lost a lot of weight, wouldn't eat, spent all my days in my room in bed, my anxiety went through the roof. I wouldn't wish this on anyone.
The good news is, now I don't want to jinx myself but the past few days, I'm starting to see a difference. For the first time yesterday, I left the house, never laid on my bed or couch and even mowed my lawn.
Today I was up and had breakfast at 8:30 where before I wouldn't even have a bite before 3 pm. I did some yardwork, junked some wood and worked in my garden. I know I'm not out of the woods yet but I feel much better. If this is a sign of days to come, I'm looking forward to tomorrow.
Like I said at the beginning, this post in in hopes that it will help some of you to not give up and think positive. I realised reading these forums that I wasn't alone and they helped me cope. You are not alone either. Good luck! It DOES get better.??
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donna67007 Dottkom
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Thank you so much for your post. I am on day 15 and it is a living hell. My anxiety has never been like this, I can't eat or sleep. I feel I am going out of my mind. I started for a week on 5mg, then another week at 10mg which I am to continue for a month. I was having anxiety attacks in my relationship which were destroying it. My boyfriend swears by citralopram. I am scared to tell him how bad I feel incase he gives up on me. In fact I'm convinced and panicked he has, but I hope/think this is just the drug demons talking. I have never felt such painfully low self esteem. I can understand why people drink, as I want the pain to go, and to knock myself out so I can sleep but I know this is not the answer. I love myself and my boyfriend so I'm sticking with it...but it's currently hell! Your post has made me feel less crazy, and more in the healing process, thank you x
Dottkom donna67007
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Don't be affraid to talk to him. Talking really helps. This forum and the support of my wife is what got me through this. I'm on week 4 and really seeing a difference. Please keep believing and don't lose hope. It does get better. I was like you just a few weeks ago. No hopes on getting better. I'm glad I stuck it out.
Good luck to you and please send me a message when you feel better. I know you will you're not alone. Even if it's a stranger sending you positive thoughts, I really believe it helps. It did for me.