Thyroid nodule on scan?

Thanks jenny. I need to think positive too but in reality it's not too good is it lol. 

Like I say I will need to sort my head. I do think positive but sometimes it's unreal. The reality is I have a possible cancer. I've always had this possible cancer but refused to deal with it because I just cannot yet mentally. So I just ignored it. I may have to deal with it though and it's going to be hard. I will do but when my head is rested enough. My therapy starts Monday.

And this is where other family members come in but we don't have any that I can trust.

We've been through it before though and I suppose we will get through it again. Just such a messed up family.I definitely don't want them this time. They tried to destroy me last time. 

That is why I'm on this stupid thyroid forum asking complete strangers. I don't want to burden my family here anymore . They have enough and this is a time when families could and should pull together. Ours is messed up and I have been blamed for it all. 

Basically I DO have a loving husband who stands by me through thick and thin and two fabulous kids who I love the bones of.  I just forgot how lucky I am. Perhaps it's me that for some reason feels worthless and I need to work on that.   If the op is needed I will have it regardless. They need me and I need them. 

I can't live my life trying to put together other families that blame me for their problems. 

We have to think of us. 

Sorry for going off topic these last few posts. 

Hiya jenny

I'm really the opposite I think. I go the doctors with something simple that I assume needs an antibiotic to clear up or a visable thing and each time I've been sent for tests and each time they (the medical people) think I may have   cancer and it's me that doesn't listen and always says I have an infection. 

I have my first smear aged 24 and it comes back positive. It Righted itself. 

I have my eyes keep bleeding and swelling up when I wake up. I go the doctors and have blood tests , the tests say I have high white count, I end up at hematology on watch and wait, 

I went with a large spot central cheek once, a cyst maybe but it was called keratosis by my doc which I'd never heard of. It was at a time when "beware of skin cancer" was all over the tvs in the docs. I go on tge 2 week wait and whilst there I mention that I had a tooth problem and gum operation and I think the cyst is because of that and i hAve an ear infection that was not clearning so i treat it myself or try to. They send me to max facial to check my cheek. They say it's ok and allow dermatology do their biopsy BUT we've found a pre cancer on the floor of your mouth, (mouth cancer was all the rage over our tvs). Still got the ear infection after 5 courses antibiotics.

 I go for the tooth problem and the op for the pre cancer and refuse the biopsy cos I really don't think it's cancer. I go back to the consultant who is adamant it's pre cancer so a year (yes a year) later I get it lazered and it comes back ok. He said it needed to be done.

Then my ongoing ear infection which I have for years turns out to be a benign  tumour that eats bone and is growing into my brain they say after my op. I have a new ear canal , eardrum, part of my skull taken to mend what's this thing destroyed.  I have the operation, i come around with the opposite side paralysed. My other ear to the operated one is soooo painful. I was un fortunate , I had ramsay hunt, a complication of the shingles virus. My smile is crooked. My nerves are shot on the operated side. Never heard of ramsay hunt but after dr google I sort of know I have it before I was diagnosed. I have spots inside my ear, my wrinkles on my forehead are gone and my eyebrow is drooped beyond anything. I get told it's maybe permanent. I use a headband and sellotape to keep my eye open. Now my ear wasn't cancer but it was likened to cancer. It was serious but I wasn't listened to here. Never referred because they didn't think it was anything serious. 

I go with a breast lump and that lump is nothing at all but they find another one that is solid and needs a biopsy opposite side.

I go with women's problems and I'm sent urgent for a scan and I have a cyst that looks malignant. I have one op then go back for a rescan and they say there's another one. I have to have surgery again but it turns out they had the left right scan mixed up and it's the same one bled into itself. I'm prone to hemoragtic cysts on the ovaries.

I go for my first mammogram because we get them from aged 47 here. I tell them about the biopsy of my lump that was benign and if they see it it's ok and to look on my records. I get a letter 5 days later, we've found a other lump, come back urgently. I go back and it's just lymph nodes apparently. 

I go to get my boil lanced (it had been there years and years assumed a raised lymph node which i had problems with anyway) and antibiotics but im asked if ive had it scanned and they find this thyroid thing that's ongoing. I need a biopsy apparently. Why I ask, I didn't know about it but they say it's a possible cancer but unlikely. I go for the biopsy all positive and get knocked back by the consultant who tells me it's not good because they have to do it again. I get it done again and of course I know lots about it because I don't understand and I realise it could be serious. He tells me the next step is surgery just to be sure according to guidelines. 

I go to the doctors because my salivary gland has stones growing in it. Everytime I eat I look like an hamster. I just want it removing naturally. I get a sialogram done. No stones they say but I can see them, I take photographs. I sucked lemons for months and remove one myself. I then remove a large one in front of my husband and daughter because I'm told I don't have them. 3 in all are removed and max facial do then agree I had them and tell me my gland will eventually pack up and it needs removing. I get a call for my operation. I cancel it because I know my gland is fine so far and my face nerve is already damaged by surgery from my ear.  I have an eye that will not close. I just needed the stones removing like any normal person. They were painful and I swelled after every meal. 

I've said it before and will say it again. I maybe shouldn't go the doctors at all. My mental health is ill over other things and although this hasn't helped me its not the cause. I don't like hospitals, really don't like hospitals. I didn't even stay after my last op although advised. I couldn't do the thyroid op and then the radioactive iodine that comes after the surgery at all because I have an extreme fear of being confined. I fear everything but not solely because of health anxiety. I have my reasons. 

I am having a nervous breakdown lol.....

Days without eating isn't good. I know I have to eat but I must admit my appetite is not too good knowing what I have to go through all over again. Each time something happens I go through the same thing. Going over and over my past and it's not helped up,to yet. 

I did have a little job which helped but I got sacked after my surgery and it put me back,so much jenny. More than anyone will ever know but I felt it was my start to getting back out there again. In fact now I look back and I was too vulnerable to work tbh. It was the wrong time and they made me feel like crap. I was already stressed due to my surgery. I haven't really been out since. I've just got worse and worse. I suffer from not being able to go out now and I need help. Work left me crushed in the end. Never again.

Hi jenny.

When you say that the family (my side and his side) won't give me a chance after knowing ......do you mean the threat of cancer or that I'm mentally ill?

You will be fine jenny. I know you sound like you're surrounded by love. You have your own family and his and even though you are not their first choice you sound like you can tolerate each other without being abused mentally or physically. 

The only help I was offered by either side was what a bad person I was and religious quotes thrown at me, (I'm not religious tbh). Or having me put away somewhere or having my kids (who I adore ) being taken away or mental torture of telling me what I already know on just how many people that should have been there for me because they knew me actually hated me. (Although I don't think it's hate.....it's just no feelings what so ever and I already knew that). 

I had my telephone assessment today and even she didn't know exactly how to help me. She's calling back Thursday.