Thyroid nodule on scan?

Jenny. I don't ever check my breast at all now. After having two scares I just don't. I try to stay away from checking anything. If something is visable and vacky I go for antibiotics. Really infected. 

I have ptsd  I think and it doesn't go away and every time something else happens it triggers. Everything else I could deal,with if I hadn't got this and yes it's life but surely I can get help. Someone who actually understands trauma. Really understands. Not some everyday therapy. I need some proper help this time . I'm ready this time. 

Your health anxiety will pass jenny if you get help too. Maybe someone at work. Occupational health perhaps. 

And Jenny it's good to care and to check maybe. 

Oh jenny. You have it bad. I also agree about your kids. That's why I occupied my mind and had "some" life when they were little. I had my first scare of my breast when my kids were little. It was a Fibroademona. Nothing serious. Just a solid lump. I had it biopsied and got anxious even after. I virtually planned my funeral . I went back even and thought I had more lumps. Just anxiety. It does go away. 

I suppose it could be post natal depression even though it's anxiety because regardless you are scared of dying. (Although most cancers are curable). Go get some help jenny. For your daughter maybe?  

I'm getting help because I'm ptsd and certainly not health anxious. I could cope with anything health wise if I hadn't got this lol and I need support. Genuine support. 

I have lots of issues regarding working. They need sorting too. 

And Jenny, I'm the opposite maybe to having health anxiety. I wasn't always this way, I'm just had so many scares that I look like a hypochondriac and people think I'm after sympathy. I'm not though. I have operstions and just get back to it. I underplay perhaps but it's helped me in the past. Your little ones need your mind well too. Its a healthy balance maybe we both need. 

I need to go back to my original thought.cancers are overdiagnosed according to lots of doctors. Ones that most probably would never kill us. Scans these days pick up the smallest cancers and guidelines say they need to operate, biopsy etc. But hopefully this will change.  I think maybe we all worry too much about cancer. In fact worry can cause cancer can't it. I didn't know of my nodule. It was an incidentaloma. Found by incident. My neck problem and also my ear blockage and my side pain has eased lots since my huge boil came up and burst. It was there years. I think it was obviously infection. I never complained of my thyroid. Never. 

If my consultant "really " thought it was cancer he would have persuaded me to have the operation He has a duty of care,and just because I gave him an argument he didn't have to listen but he did and he's a thyroid specialist. Just because guidelines say something doesn't mean that all doctors agree. It must be hard for them too. He's leaving me til March because I think he agrees about overdiagnosis maybe. I need to try to trust him don't I. 

And to be honest jenny. I am worried more that whilst they look for cancers they actually miss other things. If my thyroid issue was going to help my mind I wouldn't hesitate with getting the surgery. But it's not, my mind will be the same. If it was hindering my carotid artery again I'd have had the surgery. I don't want a stroke or to die that way. My thyroid blood tests are all normal apparently so my anxiety is nothing to do with this. 

Sounds like a good doctor jenny. He listens to you. Doesn't mock you. 

My health will get sorted. I'm hopeful anyway. 

Let me know.

Hi jenny. 

Why have you not told your husband jenny? Wouldn't he feel left out?  You can't be sure it's absolutely nothing because you wouldn't have been referred. It's not bad to check. Have you ever had a genuine cancer scare jenny. One where the doctor has biopsied. Have you ever gone to the doctors and it has been something serious? 

Yes the sun is shining  here. I've been busy self helping tbh. Reading psychology as alway do. Tying to help myself. I've had a call from my neighbour and she's lovely. She rang to say she hadn't seen me around for a while. It made me feel awful because she is elderly and psychically not too well and I'm young, healthy and sat here trying to sort just my head and she asks about me. I have been there for her though and always would if she needed me and she has a few times. She's such a strong lady. Been through so much but just keeps going. 

And another elderly (she wouldn't want me to call her that though) also said hi but we got talking of families and she was saying how this elderly man she was looking after, how his daughter should be doing it and what a horrible daughter she was as she's not there enough. I always feel when things like that are said that I have to defend the daughters as I don't know if the family was dysfunctional and she maybe finds it emotionally draining. I hate it when others judge like that. I don't see my mother much at all. As I said earlier we don't really see either family. We've not done it out of punishment, just to protect ourselves and our family. We are both from,dysfunctional families. 

I've also been looking up ptsd and built up anger (as that is how I feel) and apparently it's a sign of healing. I am angry. I am bitter and need healing. 

Hi jenny

why would they take your gallbladder when it was just painful. I know someone like that though. She always has these pains and has since childhood i think but she got attention over it.  Its different to you though as you have health anxiety and I wish I didn't have my problems and I downplay mine I've been told. You obviously aren't attention seeking because you haven't told your husband. It must be horrible for you jenny, my kids never went the doctors when they were little hardly. Both of them. In fact there was once a doctor's reception job and someone said to me "please don't go for it......you'd answer the phone and tell everyone .....oh you don't need a doctor for that".  I admit unless it's visable and really bothering me I don't go. If something hurts when I lie down I go but only after buying things and trying them myself. I've just been unfortunate and certainly don't seek attention. I don't want this kind of attention. 

I'm sure you'll keep busy until the 9th. It's not long. I painted my house, it's relaxing, I clean cupboards out, spring clean everything. You have a job and a little one. Your little one needs her mommy. Keep busy jenny but still can't understand them taking out your gallbladder just for health anxiety. I'd be fuming tbh. 

In fact jenny I was thought to have health anxiety with my ear. 

I had an ear infection that just needed antibiotics. I was given them but it was not healing. I went back and saw lots of different doctors at our practice but was never referred. I saw a doctor outside our practice who looked and advised our doctor to refer urgent. I still wasn't referred. I read about fungal ear infections and antibiotics making them worse so I tried cloves of garlic hanging out my ear lol. Not inside tho. Nothing solved it. I couldn't hear and they syringed it. Said it  full of white debris. Nothing budged. After suffering for near on a year it bled and my hearing went completely. I could only feel vibrations. I was terrified. I was then referred to ent. I went along gratefully and it was vacuumed. I was so grateful and thought that was all that was needed but they wanted me back the following week.,it felt a bit easier but still full. I went back and 3 consultants decided I needed surgery. I was told my eardrum was broke, I had a lesion inside they thought was cholesteatoma. I was told they may have to make me deaf but would put titanium rods in to compensate. I signed there and then as I was told it was growing on my face nerve also. (Although they hadn't scannedl). I was petrified, I was on my own but needed to get back to work. I was scanned next and then told it had eroded bones. I coped well. I went for op thinking they would go through my ear canal but it was done from behind. 

I had feelings when they were doing this that it was not needed. They thought I had health anxiety but I was more afraid of infection. I genuinely thought I had MRSA. My husband got it after an op and I did his dressing. The nurses wouldn't touch him. I didn't know what it was but nothing with my ear or face would clear it. I just looked up infection not clearing. 

I hope they didn't do to me what they did to you. I was told they attempted a new ear canal and my own skull was used to build the parts the tumor thing had eaten. You've got me thinking now jenny. Would they do that. Had I been too many times. Our hospital is a teaching hospital. I don't think they have money to do that. 

I naturally thought my ear problem again was to do with these rocks also. Health anxiety or just natural curiosity. 

It was 2000 when they referred me. Highly visable too. I had to sleep with a puke bucket lol. Everytime I lay down everything spun. It's ok now tho. 4 years I had it. With a little one too. I felt like I was on a roundabout and if you google it (nystsgmus) you'll see what happens to the eyes. They dart violently from side to side but mine went up and down instead. In fact times have changed now and if you get vertical nystagmus it is a red flag and you should get scanned. No one would watch tho. Until I got angry and some old doctor watched and then she knew what I meant. We videosd too. 

It wasn't the bppv that scared me. It was the fact that once you have depression on your records everything gets labelled as somatic.  

I gave up then.