Tired of Feeling Disconnected From Life

Hello bev

I'm sorry you feel so awful and I know how it feels to feel scared all the time and anxious. It takes over everything. Please know that the real bev is still in there and she's strong and will get through this, you like all of his just need some support. Stay strong bev, keep doing what you're doing and things will get better I promise. Are you on hrt? Xx

I know how you are feeling, I resigned and took HRT, helped me immensely. I believe in quality not the quantity of life.  Consider it if you haven't already.

Hope you feel better soon.

I have been there and am still living in that zone postmenopausal. I have those flickers and I know it is frustrating. I think the answer is around the corner we just have to keep doing the right thing even if it doesn't seem like it is working. About two weeks ago I found out I have osteopenia which was like the icing on the cake-not. I eat well but to be honest I am so fatigued most of the time I haven't exercised. That day I picked up the results I was like F this. Why am I eating well when the whole world is enjoying whatever. I was crying pumping gas at the Quick Trip and the hot dog on the window poster looked really good plus a brownie went through my mind. I cried for a couple days then stopped.

The things I want to do like work again and start dating after my divorce have been put on hold. I do organize for a meetup. One of the younger men told me recently that he is sure that I have been hit by some of the younger men in my group because I look younger than my age. Hit on no, but some have told me if you ever want to talk etc. before they go on with their own lives. So I do have flickers too.

I started to go back to church so I fill up some of my spiritual needs. One good thing that has come from my struggle is that I have weeded out people who are not good for me and now the only ones with me are the ones who can tolerate my lows and my quirky self. 

The thing to be honest that gets me through it is my love of kpop. I play it every day. I am 57 and I just go into about 4 years ago. It does't get rid of the depression but it lessens it and it makes me feel like something larger than myself. A connection with people from all over the world. 

This is the kpop song that came on my Pandora 2 years ago on my way to divorce court. 

This was my first kpop concert I went to on the way home I cried. I thought what have I been missing...

This is a young singer from the group Big Bang who I saw in concert. 

There is an energy in the room that makes me forget about my troubles. 

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hi Bev

We share a similar history and have had conversations before. I know all too well what you are feeling because i deal with it day in and day out. I too am tired of trying hard to feel not depressed or not anxious or not unhappy etc.

I suffer all the time, and i understand you and what you are going through it is very scary to think that you may never be the same again. I am afraid for my financial and physical and more importantly mental stability for my boys in the near future. I want them tohave their mom to rely on as long a possible. Its terrifying.

Im trying not to let FEAR take over. 

I remember our conversations where you were completely fine and normal and positive. You describe how you felt, and the activities you engage in. Remember that person because she is still inside there. I know how you feel though like.."how long can i endure this?" "how long can i keep the fight up?"

And my answer is YOU will get through it and so will I, and so will we all. I think we and other ladies here have it particularily dreadful as noone can understand depressio until theyve walked in the shoes. Same with anxiety when its bad, its incapacatating. 

Marias advice was awesome. I dont know though if i will wake up one morning andd it wiil be gone. I go up and down so much..its day to day for me, morning to afternoon to evening i plow through it, and i remind myself that i will come out of it again. Like you i dont want to be dealing with this forever.

I hear all of the success stories from the women on hrt and bhrt and i wished i was one of them. Igave them 8 months of troubleshooting and it made me weirder, or maybe i didnt get the right type who knows.

Just please send these messages and reach out because i tell you YOU are not ALONE. Im with you all the way.

x0x0x0x

hi Bev

We share a similar history and have had conversations before. I know all too well what you are feeling because i deal with it day in and day out. I too am tired of trying hard to feel not depressed or not anxious or not unhappy etc.

I suffer all the time, and i understand you and what you are going through it is very scary to think that you may never be the same again. I am afraid for my financial and physical and more importantly mental stability for my boys in the near future. I want them tohave their mom to rely on as long a possible. Its terrifying.

Im trying not to let FEAR take over. 

I remember our conversations where you were completely fine and normal and positive. You describe how you felt, and the activities you engage in. Remember that person because she is still inside there. I know how you feel though like.."how long can i endure this?" "how long can i keep the fight up?"

And my answer is YOU will get through it and so will I, and so will we all. I think we and other ladies here have it particularily dreadful as noone can understand depressio until theyve walked in the shoes. Same with anxiety when its bad, its incapacatating. 

Marias advice was awesome. I dont know though if i will wake up one morning andd it wiil be gone. I go up and down so much..its day to day for me, morning to afternoon to evening i plow through it, and i remind myself that i will come out of it again. Like you i dont want to be dealing with this forever.

I hear all of the success stories from the women on hrt and bhrt and i wished i was one of them. Igave them 8 months of troubleshooting and it made me weirder, or maybe i didnt get the right type who knows.

Just please send these messages and reach out because i tell you YOU are not ALONE. Im with you all the way.

x0x0x0x