Tired of feeling scared

Hi my daughter is 3 but I haven't felt well since I had her. From the minute she was born I felt scared, feeling of dread like something bad is going to happen and was crying a lot. I felt a little better for a while maybe 6 months or so although I still struggled with feelings of stress and dizziness on and off and symptoms I recognise now as being anxious. I did try medication but made me feel terrible so I stopped. Today I feel dreadful I am trying well to hide it and keep it together but inside I feel sick to my stomach and light headed and feel a sense of dread. I so bad want to cry but what changes...nothing. Thank you for taking the time to listen to me and replying I have no one else I feel that understands me.x

Hello Moo? You could still have post natal depression, even after 3 years. You need to talk to someone who understands and can help you, Dr/Nurse/Health Visitor. Where are you located? There are various organisations able to help, depends on your location. 

Don't bottle it up, talk is very therapeutic. Have you thought of counselling?

I found it of great help. 

Regards Pauline

I did have CBT but it didn't help and think my local mental health team have had enough of me now because they have said they dont know what else to do for me and basically said for myself to contact a mental health charity and see what services they offer. I have never felt so scared in my life I feel so terrible I am convinced something is wrong and its just a matter of time before I pass out or worse. I went out today and I so bad wanted to say to my partner can I just got back to the car because the faint feeling was soo strong I literally don't get how I haven't passed out yet with how terrible I feel. I keep feeling my chest racing or that blood rush feeling going through me. I am anxious because I feel faint and spaced out and I don't know why. I am seeing another doctor this week so hopefully they will listen but what else can they do when I have already seen cardiology, neurology and ENT? I miss my old life I look normal on the outside but inside I feel like I'm waiting for my body to just cave and say I've had enough and by then it will be to late because no doctor would have found out what's wrong with me :-( sorry to rant about it all I just feel so scared, lonely and stuck not knowing who to turn to who can really take me seriously x

Hormones can also play a role in increased dizz

U are not alone!!!! Trust me on this one!!! Do vestibular exercises regularly. Feeling faint would make anyone anxious!! It's a scarey feeling. You have not fainted nor did I.....it feels like ya will but if u haven't yet then u won't. I don't get faint feelings anymore bit when I did it was very scarey!! I saw cardiologist and neurologist. All was normal according to them. It was my ENT that diagnosed me.

I had post partem depression for 5 years--through both my children. It is fear, ache, sad, emotional, hyper, stressed, not enjoying anything, just doggedly taking care of kids and home. Later I got professional talking therapy which was a huge boon. The depression came back years later when there were anti-depressents available. I've been on them for 20 years, and I've been able to have a normal life. About the vertigo, I had it for about two months; Vestibular Neuritis or BPPV  benign paroxism (or something ) positional vertigo. Doing the Epley maneuver every day for about seven weeks, I was much improved. Now, a olaryngologist (head and neck doc) examined me and referred me for Vestibular Therapy. I've had 5 treatments--which do make you dizzy, even nauteous, but it's necessary to get you better. I've been released--about 90% better, and for the next 3 months I have to do walking exercises--in all combinations--and hopefully I will be done. I am very hopeful. 

I have had on-going anxiety issues for around 3 years since having my daughter. Its just got worse and worse since then feeling ill where I don't feel convinced its anxiety now. Did you get nausea with these feelings to? What did your faint feeling make you feel like and what did the doctor say was the cause? With mine I feel terrible inside ie hot sensation like really worked up and nauseous along with feeling spaced out and feeling out of it and of course the dizzy/faint feeling. My head also feels strange like heavy at times likes I am being weighed down and lately the tiredness is unbearable I struggle to sleep at night but then even when I do sleep I wake in the night or during the day I just feel totally out of it. I have seen ENT numerous times and nothings come of it except this week I will be having a warm water in the ear balance test. I have always been told anxiety and to try yoga and cut out caffeine etc. I am thinking of asking for an MRI although I had a CT scan end of 2013 and they said if was something going on it would have showed up then x

.5 mg helped me for dizziness! It's the only reason why I take it. When I got faint feelings or intense dizziness it created anxiety for me. The ativan help decrease the symptoms. Anxiety would escalate my already dizzy feeling. I definitely get nauseous at times but has gotten alot better! When I felt faint my eyes would go unfocused....very dizzy bit not spinning.... More like an intense feeling of lightheadedness. And of course then followed by anxiety. My head feels heavy and I only feel better when lying down. Even at times lying down I feel like I sway a little. Heart palpitations have been a pain but all heart tests show normal. I would feel like I was having a head rush. I have vestibular neuritis. I was diagnosed from an ENT. It's very very difficult to diagnose an inner ear issue. Go get a 2nd opinion from a ENT. I also had difficulties sleeping. Had a bit of ringing in the ears and head pressure. Felt tremors inside my head. Docs always think anxiety but I knew this was something different. Glad your going for caloric testing!!! Very good test to check for inner ear issues. You know your body best....you would know if its anxiety cuz you've had it before!! Don't settle for a diagnosis that u don't feel fit. My ct scan showed normal as well. Did u see the same ent or different ones?

Inner ear issues such as VN does not show up on tests.....the caloric test is a good one though

So would they be able to tell if its VN off that test I'll be having? I have tinnitus to but its manageable at the moment but I have had it bad before. And sorry was that 0.5mg or 5mg of atvian you have had? I have seen 2 different ENT consultants within the same hospital before. I do believe theres something causing the anxiety to be worse and like you said you know your own body. Mine also isn't a spinning just a strong off balance and faint feeling x

Off that test they are likely to find any vestibular damage that hasn't been compensated. I am on the list to get this done as well. I would take 0.25-0.5mg of ativan to take the dizzy edge off. There is also a more extensive vestibular testing beyond just the caloric test you could do as well. My neurologist is sending me for this because its been so long. I felt off balance in the beginning as well and only a little at times now. Unfortunately with inner ear the only thing you can do for it is vrt. And it take alot of time and patience. Takes awhile to fully heal. Can take weeks to months to even years. When I asked my ENT how long it will take he figured 6-12/months.....my vestibular therapist said "as long as it takes". I k ow how you feel. How long has this been for you?

I went for my caloric test today only to be told after doing 1 ear they cant continue due to ear wax in the other ear so I now have to get that wax removed and wait for another appointment. I feel so down because it took a lot to do that 1 ear today because I was so anxious I felt terrible before going and I had to go in the toilet when I got there because I felt weak and faint like I felt like I was about to have a severe panic attack. I felt sick to the stomach. I told them I was anxious which they could tell because my eyes on the camera were moving all over the place. I have not felt panic so much like that in a while its really scared me. I wanted to go a&e my automatic reaction while I was in the hospital but I knew deep down I was anxious. I'm gutted I went through all that with testing 1 ear and being anxious to now having to go back again in how many weeks time to do it all again.

How did it feel? It sucks cuz we always feel on edge or on the verge of a panic attack and of course stressful events make our symptoms worse. And we can't take anything before this appointment either cuz it could effect the results of the test. Please keep me posted about the results. This is definitely not fun!! Can't wait for it to be gone!!!!! Just remember it won't last forever. Stay strong...be positive... And keep focus! It takes time....alot of time...grrrr

When I went to see my ENT a couple months ago....he had to remove ear wax from one of my ears.....strange we both had this issue.