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Hi, it's the first time I have posted in a forum but I am at a loss as to what to do anymore
I am 35 with two children and a husband and to anyone looking in life is a rosey
Apart from health anxiety. It is totally crippling me. I have suffered with health anxiety as long as I can remember, but since my son was born 3 years ago it has spiralled out of control. I have diagnosed myself with every cancer going and am convinced there must be something serious otherwise I wouldn't feel the way I do.
I have given myself a brain tumour, bowel cancer, liver lung pancreatic bone cancer you name it I have had it(in my head) today I am worry I have breast cancer that's spread and that's why I feel so terrible! I think the lump I can feel is my rib but it still doesn't stop the constant tapping in my brain of what if.
I dread checking any body part because I know if I find something i can't control my anxiety but I also can't stop checking until I do find something
I am just so tired of feeling like this but don't seem to be able to control it. I have had 8 sessions of cbt which helped for a while but it's back with a vengeance
I don't want to live in fear I am terrified of cancer to the point if I see an advert I think it's telling me I have it
I don't really have anyone to talk to about it,my friends don't know, my husband pretends it's not happening if I say I feel anxious and my mum is amazing but has really had enough now. There favourite is you need to snap out of it now.
I just want to escape my brain for just one day, laugh again and enjoy life like used to but then there's the anxiety saying what if it's not in your head, what if you do have cancer, so I have to keep checking and googling to stay safe.
Sorry for the long post I have just had enough today
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