Too scared to kill myself, how pathetic

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That's it. I've had about all I can take from this miserable thing we call life. I'm sick of being depressed and having panic attacks.

I want to hang myself, don't ask me why that's my chosen method but it is but I have a death phobia so I'm too scared to do it and gave myself a panic attack instead.

That's irony in its finest form.

It's just not worth it anymore, nothing is.

My life's falling apart and I have absolutely zero will left to carry on this fight.

I'm done.

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    why would a beautiful girl like you want to kill yourself? there is much more to life. you just have to go out there and find it.
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      I agree, what an absolutely ignorant reply. Obviously I'm on this page because I'm thinking about killing myself. And its responses like the one about, why would a beautiful girl want to kill themselves, that just further cement my desire to leave this planet. As if looks, opportunity, or any other external thing had anything to do with internal suffering. I'm tired of living every day with my suffering, and failure and worthlessness. I'm human garbage and can't wait until I'm dead.

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      Thank you, although i am pretty certain I am garbage. I've been talking to doctors and therapists for years. I'm just not cut out for life. I'm a failure, completely and totally. I'm hoping to end my suffering some time in the next few days. I'm ready for it to all be over. I pray every night that I don't wake up tomorrow. I've told all the friends and family I can. They ate convinced I won't do it. They just give me the old "Everything is gonna be fine". But it isn't fine, hasnt been fine, and shows no signs of becoming fine.

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      Hello, i hope you are still here.

      Noone is cut out for life really. Life is unfair most of the time, but thats how it is. I am 100% sure you are not garbage and also not a failure. The saying "Everythings gonna be fine" and the "everything happens for a reason" speech sucks ass i knowww. But i started to believe everything does happen for a reason. and i really wanna feel the feeling of happiness again before i die. i got hope it will be better some time. it has to be. The concept of life actually sounds so cool. Please hang in there, i pray that there are better days coming for you, i really do. Life is not fair and its always the good souls that suffer in this life time. And i know this probably wont face you cause who do i think i am and i dont know anything about your life but im so so sure you have people around you that truly care for you!! Hang in there until you see signs of it becoming better

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      agreed its a silly reply but i feel as if it was maybe a reassurance or a compliment just to make the girl feel good about herself and maybe rethink what she may be planning to do. I think it is unfair to attack this advice without knowing the reasoning behind it, If I was feeling suicidal i feel like the idea of someone who doesnt know me paying me compliments online would make me feel quite good about myself

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      i have read through a fair few comments because im feeling a little down and i dont know how to hamdle it, however i feel like your being a bit unfair and pin pointing on the message for no reason. you cant say that someone elses comment makes you further want to do anything because they may not have meant to hurt anyone and we are all on this group for a reason, god forbid something did happen and its making them feel like they had a part in it. its just not fair!

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      You're not garbage. I really hope you're still around. There are people out there that value you and would be devastated of you went. I feel my life is a total f**k up and I think of suicide on a minute by minute basis. I'm trying to hold back, hoping circumstances or my mood changes. I don't want to contribute to the misery of others, which is probably the main reason (apart from my cowardice) that I don't go through with my suicidal thoughts. I went through this before, didn't act on my impulses, and had some good years afterwards. I'm hoping the same thing might happen now. Please just delay, delay, delay, and maybe your mindset will be different.

      I wish you all the best.

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      same here...therapists, psychiatrists and meds yet still failing........“God is a mean kid sitting on an anthill with a magnifying glass, and I'm the ant. He could fix my life in five minutes if He wanted to, but He'd rather burn off my feelers and watch me squirm.”

      JIM CARREY - Bruce Nolan

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      same here...therapists, psychiatrists and meds yet still failing........“God is a mean kid sitting on an anthill with a magnifying glass, and I'm the ant. He could fix my life in five minutes if He wanted to, but He'd rather burn off my feelers and watch me squirm.”

      JIM CARREY - Bruce Nolan

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      i get where you are coming from and have been there since january but something in the last few weeks made me realize i cant be that mean to myself anymore (like you calling yourself garbage) but i also feel like a failure for not being able to not make myself wake up. vicious cycle. totally sick of hearing things are going to be ok as well and future talk erks me

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