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Feeling very fed up and down today. I had such a grasp on all the reasons to not do it anymore and i felt i was becoming stonger as time went on. Then for some reason, it wasnt even a particulary bad day i just wanted it and gave in. I could have been stronger so why wasnt i? Am i just a selfish person who when it all boils down to it thinks of nothing else but the first wave of alcohol when it enters your body. This forum has been a big help to me over the last few weeks and i do thank you all for your support. Genuinely just fed up with the whole thing....i believe that i am someone who never ever should have had that first sip. A bit like the way most people dont have their first hit of heroin. I always knew that i could get addicted. I have a lot of thinking to do right now, need to retrain my brain to the point that it was at a few days ago. Right now its the guilt and a horrible feeling that i will always be this way. So sorry again for being on a downer. Just being honest. Thoughts are with you all x
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