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I was just wondering if there was anyone out there who struggled with unwanted thoughts?
One day about two moths ago I had a terrible thought about my children and from then it has just been awful. My doctor has put me on 40mg citalopram and propanodol . I have also started taking vit b as ive heard this can help.
one minute i think it will be ok but then bam it just hits me and i start having crazy thoughts. I go thorugh suvere feelings of guilt because i start thinking why am i thinking like this, i start to question do i not like my own children then i think i am a terrible mother for even thinking that etc,
the other day i just thought oh my god i cant do this anymore.
i start to freak out thinking all this is the build up to something terrible i am going to do etc.
is there anyone else who has experienced and will it get better and stop. i just want to go back to the normal mother i was who adored everything about my children i really cant cope with it.
one thing i think deep deep deep down i dont think i would ever hurt my children. i dont even skelp them, and if i thought anyone had to hurt them i would kill them for it. its all just so messed up and i cant do this anymore.
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