unwanted thoughts really need help

Hi Liz. I’ve had anxiety problems for years . I recently had a couple of episodes of irregular heartbeat, and this tipped me over the edge. I just broke down, I’d had enough. I had test done, all came back clear. So I’ve put it down to anxiety. Always worried about dying etc .  Anyway, my doctor put me on antidepressants, but I only took them for 5 days. They made me feel terrible. I really struggled for a week or so after I stopped taking them . I felt terrible. I’ve also had these thoughts most of you guys are having, or have had . It’s hard for me to write this, but I’ve had thoughts of hurting family members and friends. Its been driving me crazy, because I know I wouldn’t do it . The thought scares the hell out of me , because I’ve never hurt anyone in my life . I even try and avoid stepping on ants when I walk 😂 All these posts have helped me though. It’s nice to know I’m not the only one who’s had these crazy thoughts. Hopefully I will stop trying to stop thinking about them so much , so they will pass . I remember years ago I had a similar problem and it passed . After years of suffering from anxiety, I’m finally trying to fix the problem. I have an appointment with a shrink next week , so hopefully she will help me . Thanks everyone on here , this has been a big help. I know these posts are from a couple of years ago. Really hope everyone is well 😊

Hi I have been diagnosed with OCD however I find medicine makes me feel worse

Rocky,

ill tell what I do or have done, when thoughts come up I say to myself here's the OCD again, cbt might help, l pray, if your sure you are having OCD thoughts then realize this. This is anxiety based, somehow our minds run the OCD loop. I draw, cook etc, get away from your thinking, I can trust what I do with my hands. Do self talk that you love yourself everyday and cone up with other things to say. It's like a wiring problem in the brain. I'm guessing you are good at things with your hands. Find out about using your intuition, I am highly sensitive, an empath and a coach. I am new and could do some free sessions if you are able.

bless you

gary kleiner

Wow it's like you know me! I craft and scrap book for therapy , I had a therapist once who would tell me to not do everything that triggered my thoughts , but the craziest things trigger them!! Praying def helps. I think it also feels worse because I second guess myself to like I will say maybe it's not OCD thoughts , maybe u r just thinking this. But I know I'm not ugh. My husband is very supportive but I feel so bad. I makes me hate myself.

People don't trust themselves. If you doubt yourself I ended in a mental hospital. The dr asks will you hurt John? And you say I'm not sure. They may commit you. You should think of it as a condition where your brain wires are going in a circle. Since you doubt yourself with OCD, focus on things you do well. OCD is your brain. I'm intuitive so I get out of my head and go with what feels right. Hating yourself even saying it doesn't help. Your brain takes this stuff in and will go against you like Satan. I don't think OCD is satanic but it could you from trusting God and realize we all have a purpose and God loves you even with the OCD.

its about not beating or judging yourself, be good to yourself today. I heard that you should fake it till you make it. Tell yourself you can do it. Tell yourself you love yourself. I'm not a therapist but a life coach. I live each day with issues. I don't know about you but I can feel your pain. I understand how it feels. Practice, do the work you love and love yourself. Your husband can be supportive but I guess he hasn't been through it. Join a scrap booking group or other group to enhance your good feelings. 

I only offer the advice based on intuition and living it. If I'm wrong in anything I have said please tell me.

bless you rocky 

Aw God bless you. I think the worse is the guilty feelings, and I always fear freak accidents and they stories just pop in my head. It's life I'm wasting life thinking this stuff. A lot of times I predict things so I think that it makes it all worse thinking everything bad will come true .

The craziest things bring it on too. Like babies and baby animals give me anxiety and bad thoughts thinking they could get hurt and be helpless by a bad persons .. It's crazy. And the happier I am the more my brain tries to put thoughts in my head.

What you are experiencing, most likely, are intrusive thoughts. And although medication has made it worse, have you tried any other ones? And I agree with Gary, finding something you love doing is a great way to help. You could aso try other treatment, such as Exposure and Response therapy (which I have heard is more effective than medcine actually!) You could go see a therapist, and if you do not feel comfortable with the one you have now, don't be afraid to try a new one! Some therapists can just be deameaning, and don't understand. They make you feel bad about yourself, which you shouldn't. This is a brin issue, it has nothing to do with you. I know it's hard, but try not to look down upon yourself, because you really aren't crazy. it's a shame that people like you and I have to deal with this, and it upsets me how there is not enough awareness. But we csn slowly bring up awareness. As for now it is good to talk to other people who are experiencing the same things, because it helps make you remember that you are not alone. You are astrong, brave person. You have to go thorugh hell and back everyday, and you are strong. God bless you. Sray positive, it will be alright.

It's a therapy that is meant to take your intrusive thoughts, and OCD compulsions etc, and face them. As in you don't do anything to "relieve them" and makes you realise that they are just thoughts, and won't actually happen. It's kind of like if your dcared of spiders, you get rid of the fear bby holding one, and seeing that it's not actually harmful.