unwanted thoughts really need help
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Hi
I was just wondering if there was anyone out there who struggled with unwanted thoughts?
One day about two moths ago I had a terrible thought about my children and from then it has just been awful. My doctor has put me on 40mg citalopram and propanodol . I have also started taking vit b as ive heard this can help.
one minute i think it will be ok but then bam it just hits me and i start having crazy thoughts. I go thorugh suvere feelings of guilt because i start thinking why am i thinking like this, i start to question do i not like my own children then i think i am a terrible mother for even thinking that etc,
the other day i just thought oh my god i cant do this anymore.
i start to freak out thinking all this is the build up to something terrible i am going to do etc.
is there anyone else who has experienced and will it get better and stop. i just want to go back to the normal mother i was who adored everything about my children i really cant cope with it.
one thing i think deep deep deep down i dont think i would ever hurt my children. i dont even skelp them, and if i thought anyone had to hurt them i would kill them for it. its all just so messed up and i cant do this anymore.
thanks
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lisaco37 gillian26312
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I am going through exactly the same thing right now . Was with doc this morning because I can't control my thoughts and like you I have a fear that it will end badly. Makes me so scared . For 7 months I've been on so many different meds I feel I'm going crazy . Just want to be better
RockyMama24 lisaco37
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Ugh
I feel your pain. I always think the worse possible thing that could happen and it just makes me so sad, it's nice to see I am not alone
carla95111 lisaco37
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I just want you to know that there are so many different meds, and each of them work best for different people. You just have to find the right one that workd best for you. I have already been thorugh three different types of medication, and i am only 15. Hang in there, and I know it's hard but keep trying to have hope! I know what you feel like though.
gary61640 carla95111
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I didn't know exposure therapy was used for OCD. I remember it was used for general fears like elavators-you would go in elavator with your shrink and he would talk and this would lessen your fear. We need to know we are not alone and only person going through this, you can go through a lot of meds before something works. Realize it's not easy and you can get through this.
As i said, I think I was thinking bad thoughts because I was scaring myself with the thoughts. You have to reassure yourself that they are just thoughts.
if you can do this then intentionally be around things you get thoughts of.
Our mind are persistent and look for crazy thoughts.
I believe eve you can get through this and I pray that you get this. People love you and need you. Trust that they are just thoughts.
Pngwnita gillian26312
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I know this is an older thread but this has relieved me so much. I have been through so many disturbing events in the past year and a half and just recently I've been having intrusive thoughts of all sorts. I hate them and I'm scared of them. I've never thought of these things before and I know I will never act on them. Then I stumbled upon this wonderful sight because I had no idea why I kept having these thoughts until now and I feel relieved. I knew I had anxiety from everything but I didn't connect the dots. Thank you to everybody who spread some light on the subject! There are those, like me, out there who really need to know this. Again, thank you 😊
gary61640 Pngwnita
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Ho png,
i have many many years of experience in this area. I have learned different coping skills. I can identify if I'm going to act on intrusive thoughts. I keep very busy helping others, work on creative endeavors etc.
When I landed in mental hospital two times, doctors messed up my meds, I nearly killed myself. I wasn't ready for realizations about myself. Make sure you check out thyroid, gluten allergies, caffeine sensitivity, testosterone.
When I got stronger I looked into things. OCD stuff takes up a lot of your time, try doing things you like doing like gardening and drawing instead of fighting thoughts. Think of OCD as not your friend. Your mind is complex.
People naturally come to me for answers. I'm no guru, but I must help others where I can. I do coaching which could be helpful.
If you want to try coaching at all I'm available.
i go to church to feel grounded, not feel like a freak and I love to sing.
god bless you
gary
eve64757 gillian26312
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I find that the best way to get rid of unwanted thoughts is to confront the thing you're thinking about. Spend as much time as you possibly can with your children, and your brain will realize that you don't and never would want to bring harm to them.
gary61640 eve64757
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Eve,
Yes, if you have guilty feelings your not crazy.crazy people have no conscience . Doc say I'm thinking this way because I'm trying to scare yourself. I when you have these thoughts, I say I'm having OCD. In Christian and read the thoughts are just a problem with our braiin. I am good, having bad thoughts, ask god to be with you. When I was on hospital, I had a thought of hurting a nurse. If you are sure you won't hurt anyone your good, OCD like the devil, trying to drive you crazy
Gary
Blee123 gillian26312
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Hi, it was a long time ago and I'm very sorry for what you're going through, as I know myself. Ill start by saying I'm 14, and I'm gonna tell my experience and my story in hopes of helping someone else. One day horrible thoughts came to me all of a sudden. About hurting others, or even myself. I'm a good person, I believe in god and that helps. I told my mom and she was understanding and agreed I should see someone. I felt like I needed that too as I was tired of living with the thoughts. Like everyone has said they are thoughts, and not actions. I've always been a very anxious person and I think my anxiety and depression is just starting to peak. My mom is a nurse so today we decided I'd go to work with her and see a nurse practitioner to refer me to a psychiatrist. I haven't been to my psychiatrist appointment yet, I'm really nervous, but I'm hoping it can help. Hormones. That's what my doctor told me could be out of wack. About a year ago I discovered I had ovarian cysts and had to go on birth control I never took it regularly until recently and they think maybe that's why. But also it makes it much worse that I have anxiety and just can't forget about it. They perscribed me a couple medicines for balancing my horomones, anxiety, and depression. The important thing is, I have a wonderful family and love my life and I hat feeling this way but it's often something we can't help. I've found reading the Bible and praying really helps me. I hope you've gotten better and found peace!
daughterofGod gillian26312
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gary61640 daughterofGod
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Hi Daughter of God,
did you want to talk about if you still are experiencing this problem, how are you coping?do you know any ways others can be helped, do you have any questions, I'm aware of what goes on with unwanted thoughts, the truth is if I experienced guilt about the thoughts about hurting others, now I know I'm not a psycho because they wouldn't feel guilty, for all, of you have unwanted thoughts and are not sure if you are going to act on them, you should call mental health emergency number or 911$.
blessings
gary
janessa15731 gillian26312
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This is my first time joining a group so I am not sure how to go about it but needing some help. Has anyone had harmful thoughts that won't go away about harming their husband or themselves? How did you deal with it?
gary61640 janessa15731
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im not a doctor so Answe these questions: their is a line between Obsessive Thoughts which is ocd. With me, if you feel guilty about thoughts, you might have a high moral thinking. I’m a Christian so if I thought about hurting someone, I would think, why did I have that crazy thought. If your not sure if you are going to act on thought, call 911 now. Ocd is an anxiety based problem. I had issues thinking, I can jump off this cliff? If you say to yourself, this is a strange thought and obsess that you had the thought it could be ocd. I think people who think about hurting others don’t feel guilty about the thought. It feels awful that I had thoughts about hurting family. These thoughts with ocd are to scare you, again if your not sure call 911. It seems like if your here might be ocd. I think if you don’t have a specific plan to hurt another probably ocd. If you have a plan then you should get help.
please, write back,
love
gary
janessa15731 gary61640
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No I'm not a harmful person but the thoughts have stuck in my head like glue and they say the more you try and stop them the worse im they becomes. I was recently put on fluoxetine for ocd/depression but i just started it. Im looking for a quick fix and I get impatient because I want too feel the way I did before
gary61640 janessa15731
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it it sounds like they are treating you for ocd. My obsessive thoughts, I think are brought on more by stress. I am an artist who makes art while listening to music. Google Gh Kleiner artist to see my story. Being aware of this is good. When it happens tell yourself it’s ocd. Your brain is misfiring, don’t fight with your mind. It’s not your friend here. The ocd is like they say the devil is. Be aware when it happens,if it’s ocd people usually just think of the thoughts, them ruminate on why they had thought? Try church, or something to keep your mind busy. Fully engage in activities like adult coloring or try to do art. Listen to music. Remind yourself that god loves you. You don’t feel lovable with this.
i pray you get through this, I care, god cares, really and I don’t know you, but I feel the pain! Your husband and others won’t usually understand.
get enough sleep, hydrate, keep your mind busy, tell yourself your not crazy. Keep in touch.
gary