very depressed, overly sensitive
Posted , 18 users are following.
This is my second bout of PMR. The first time I really did not experience any side effects of the pred...with the exception of small weight gain and slightly moon faced.
I have been back on pred for 2 months. Started at 20mg. I am now down to 15 mg. I will be reducing by 1 mg / month until I reach 10 mg. Then I will reduce by 1/2 mg/month.
Anyway, I am having a very difficult time with depression this time. I am usually a pretty upbeat person, but I find myself sinking. I am so unhappy,
I am also starting to have 'mild' suicidal thoughts.. aka maybe I should just take the whole bottle of Attivan. As quick as the thought enters my mind, its gone.
Adding to this PMR...my husband passed away 8 yrs ago. I am now feeling like I did in the 2-3 yrs after. I am 62 yrs old. The only thing that keeps me going are my 9 grandkids. The problem is that I have built my whole life around only these guys. Prior to PMR and pred, I was doing fine.
Anyway...has anyone else experienced this. And if so what did you do?
I keep telling myself to stop feeling sorry for myself and move on.
I have no pain, Thank God. It's just the head confusion, lack of focus and now depression.
Let me know if there are any solutions?
6 likes, 35 replies
tina-uk_cwall Nanduff
Posted
for you, remember you beat it once before, and you can beat it again. Regards, tina
pam41628 Nanduff
Posted
i am feeling very well - no side effects and am on my second week of 7.5....
So, hearing that you've been hit twice with PMR and with no symptoms the first time..and now this..its so scary.....what a crazy disease!!
I would suggest you see your Dr. and also get some counselling or talk with friends.....or your children......
Take care and may you find some relief!
tina-uk_cwall Nanduff
Posted
EileenH tina-uk_cwall
Posted
Elijo Nanduff
Posted
gillian_25383 Nanduff
Posted
Anhaga Nanduff
Posted
ray12929 Nanduff
Posted
Anhaga Nanduff
Posted
tina-uk_cwall Anhaga
Posted
i have no doubt that your kitties bring you comfort and laughter and in turn you give them a lot of love. Regards, tina
Anhaga tina-uk_cwall
Posted
pam7653 Nanduff
Posted
I too am on my second round of PMR. Starting my 3rd year on Prednizone. My first year I noticed no side affects from the Prednizone. My second year, the bruising, mood changes gradually became more noticeable. Now starting my 3rd year my muscle tone is shrinking and I'm starting to feel my age unlike before. I am 62 yrs old and a widow now for 9 years. I have 4 grown daughters and 4 beautiful grandchildren and one more next year! I have a live in boyfriend for 2 years now but even with that there are times I feel sad. Just this week I had foot surgery and in 2 weeks have an intensive hysterectomy and rectocele surgery. His presence here is no help at all. I'm beginning to think there's not a man out there that can nurture. I'm always taking care of everyone, I just want someone to take care of me! I still find myself doing it all because it's easier than watching someone's eyes roll when asked to help.
Your depression is understandable, and I'm sure related to the Prednizone. I'm sure mine is.
If this continues with me I will seek medical help. I know stress feeds PMR, that's how I got in this mess.
So hang in there! Blame it on the meds! I have my ups and downs too! I'm usually a very up beat person, but it doesn't take much to bring me down!
Anhaga pam7653
Posted
Nanduff, do your grandchildren's parents know how sad you feel? If they are wrapped up in child-rearing they may be oblivious to the fact that you need some nurturing too. Hugs.
EileenH Nanduff
Posted
The head confusion is probbaly the pred, it is also probably not helping the depression - but you need the pred for now so you have to get things sorted out a bit.
Go on - make the appointment on Monday morning. And ask someone to look after the bottle of Ativan for the moment.
You'll be fine - as long as you act. And let us know how you get on.
Juno-Irl-Dub Nanduff
Posted
Take care, J