Very lonley

I find it hard enough to look after my self,

i wouldn't be able to look after an animal aswell

It certainly sounds like a deep depression that does not get better waiting and hoping.  It's too bad that anti depression drugs take sooooo long to work if at all.  My husband had to "try" a number of them before he found one that "helped".  When one is depressed it is very hard to "look after" anything even your self.  Any activity at all DOES  help.  If you do something/anything physical your mind focuses on that activity and not how helpless you feel.  It sounds like you should start with yourself and your clothes then your home surroundings.  You may have to make yourself get up and shower.  Every step that you take for yourself is money in your self esteem bank.  If you do that one thing add to it and you will feel good about it.  Do it again the next day and try to do more.  Every activity you can accomplish, even simple ones, is positive and uplifting.  Tell us what you can and have done for yourself not what you can't do.  BTW "laid back friendly" cats are easier to care for than dogs but good dogs give you total unconditional love!    

i have tryed anti depresants before, a few different types over a number of years and they did'nt help in any way, i have also got to be careful what tablets i take as i have had very bad stomach bleed 7 years ago, i nearly died. my head injury is exteemly complicated, it is very hard to be positive about things. i have been to see headway today to try and get help, i hope  i can get to the right people, its not gone very well for me in the past when trying to get help. i am wanting to make new friends, and do new activitys, but its so hard with the struggles i have with socialising

WOW Wayne.  You got yourself out today and went to see Headway for help.  That is a very positive step I hope you are proud of yourself!  It's money in your self esteem bank.  I hope that they can help you or point you in the right direction.  If it doesn't work out..... YOU did the right thing to go there and they just were not for you.  It sounds like your past experiences with seeking help did not work out too well BUT you tried and you must keep on trying because giving up absolutely doesn't work.  How old are you and how are your people skills?  I was always very shy and did not make friends easily.  I never knew what to say to someone at a party or in a class.  I started making comments to people shopping in the store and to the store employees.  More times than not they would be friendly and glad that someone talked to them.  Make it simple......"I like your scarf.  I have to get a B'day gift for my sister and I don't have a clue but she likes blue(or what ever color the scarf is).  Where is it from? Do you have any ideas for me?"   TMI huh.  Good luck and keep us all informed on all the progress I see in your future.

Hi, cant say much at min, im out and battery is on 5%. I like what say, i want talk to you later, im not in a good place 😢